S.A.L.T

Update???

2008-10-06T23:27:00.001+08:00

Hmmm.... I can feel the spider-web on this blog....

Time for clearing up and some update post! Yes i know it has been 6 months since my last post. But i wonder what is Amber and Su Ting doing too or perhaps they have forgotten about this blog???

What is required for blogging? Passion or Discipline?

Very curiously about these two words, I went online to search the for its meaning. And these are the results....

PASSION:

1.Any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling, as love or hate.

2.strong amorous feeling or desire; love; ardor.

3.strong sexual desire; lust.

4.an instance or experience of strong love or sexual desire.

5.a person toward whom one feels strong love or sexual desire.

6.a strong or extravagant fondness, enthusiasm, or desire for anything: a passion for music.

7.the object of such a fondness or desire: Accuracy became a passion with him.

8.an outburst of strong emotion or feeling: He suddenly broke into a passion of bitter words.

9.violent anger.

10.the state of being acted upon or affected by something external, esp. something alien to one's nature or one's customary behavior (contrasted with action).

11.(often initial capital letter) Theology.

a.the sufferings of Christ on the cross or His sufferings subsequent to the Last Supper.

b.the narrative of Christ's sufferings as recorded in the Gospels.

12.Archaic. the sufferings of a martyr.

DISCIPLINE

1.training to act in accordance with rules; drill: military discipline.

2.activity, exercise, or a regimen that develops or improves a skill; training: A daily stint at the typewriter is excellent discipline for a writer.

3.punishment inflicted by way of correction and training.

4.the rigor or training effect of experience, adversity, etc.: the harsh discipline of poverty.

5.behavior in accord with rules of conduct; behavior and order maintained by training and control: good discipline in an army.

6.a set or system of rules and regulations.

7.Ecclesiastical. the system of government regulating the practice of a church as distinguished from its doctrine.

8.an instrument of punishment, esp. a whip or scourge, used in the practice of self-mortification or as an instrument of chastisement in certain religious communities.

9.a branch of instruction or learning: the disciplines of history and economics.

–verb (used with object)

10.to train by instruction and exercise; drill.

11.to bring to a state of order and obedience by training and control.

12.to punish or penalize in order to train and control; correct; chastise.

Such a simple word but yet with a long list of meaning. So what is needed for blogging?Passion or Discipline? Or is there other words to describe??

Sun's new song

2008-04-19T10:34:00.002+08:00

Heard Sun's new Chinese song. Nice!

To hear click on the following link.
http://vlog.xuite.net/vlog/guest/basic.php?media_id=ZzZSN1JyLTk1MDg0NS5mbHY

Enjoy!

DOn't Ever!

2008-03-29T11:39:00.001+08:00

For once i thought since we have not being updating this blog, perharps people will not bother to visit anymore. This thoughts even give me the excuse not to blog. pai seh...i had repented =)

But recently i heard that there are still people visitng S.A.L.T hoping that they will see some updates. hahaha...thanks for the support.

By hearing that it just taught me that don't ever assume and takes things for granted.

Don't ever think that if you have forgotten others will forget.
Don't ever think that if you have done enough others will be satisfied.
Don't ever think that if you have tried, it will be the best.

Ok to our faithful readers out there. We will update often! =)

Opportunity

2007-11-26T00:55:00.000+08:00

The leader is a winner.
They own a winning attitude.
They look like they're winning even when they're not.
They are a winning spirit.
Joseph looks like a winner even in chains, sold as a slave.
He still looks like a winner in prison.
He stands tall, walks straight, clear purpose in his eyes.
He laughs at difficulties and is unmoved by challenge.
He becomes the Prime Minister of Egypt.
We win from the inside out, not the outside in.

Modelling

2007-11-03T02:34:00.000+08:00

What we say and what we do must agree.
Our people will do what we do more than what we say.
What walks in fathers runs in children.
The way we handle our people is the way they will handle others.
What we do to our people is what they will do to others.
Our actions will always be more powerful than our words.
People accuse or excuse themselves on the actions of their leaders.
Our lives are the most powerful message we will ever preach.
People ask themselves, 'What would (that person) do in this situation?'
And thus they get counsel from knowing the life of their leader.

Quote - ' That which we are, we are all the while teaching, not voluntarily, but involuntarily.' - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Doing!

2007-10-25T01:21:00.000+08:00

If you only do what you can do then you're only ever going to do what you can do!
But, if you start to do what you cannot do, you'll find you can do what you cannot do.
And what you absolutely cannot do, God will do, or a team of incredible poeple will, who are attracted to the person attempting to do what they cannot do.
Don't imagine God will ask you to do what you can do!
He asks you to do what you can't do.
Then you'll need Him to do it!
But you're the one who starts the impossible dream.
No-one, not even God, gets inpsired by the mediocre.
Attempt the impossible, ignore the critics, attract the best, accomplish the unbelievable!

Quote - ' For with God nothing is impossible' - Luke 1:37

Be Bright

2007-10-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

Be bright when you meet people.
It may be the only time you ever meet that person.
Make people feel great.
What an incredible opportunity we have every time we meet someone.
Be sunlight to them.
You will affect their whole day.
They will remember you as a bright, encouraging, positive person.
They will carry a good report about you everywhere.

Motivation

2007-10-11T21:35:00.000+08:00

Getting motivated is essential.
From the inside, the outside, from wherever.
'Why sit we here till we die', say the four lepers in the Biblical record as they sitoutside the besieged city of Samaria.
If we sit forever, we will sit till we die.
Being motivated is not just being inspired though.
Motivation goes to work.
If motivation doesn't result in action it is futile.
Embrace work as your best friend.
As you go to work the motivation increases.
Accept work as your life.
Accept life as work.
Not obsessive work without rest; not activity without productivity, but work that ispaced, purposeful and productive.
The dreams of a lazy man will kill him.
Renounce laziness; embrace industry.
Go for it! Do something!

Significance

2007-09-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

Possibly the greatest ability all of us have is giving significance to others.
One small spark of recognition can ignite a flame of creativity and drive that releases a person into a collision with destiny.
When you meet someone, anyone, include the 'wow' factor.
Be amazed at their life.
Notice their accomplishments with praise.
Tell others how incredible they are.
Thank them for helping you.
Ask them how they do what they do.
Let them teach you something.
We may have just one chance to change a person's life.
Don't miss your chance today.

Quote - ' When someone does something well, applaud! You will make two people happy.' - Samuel Goldwyn

Encouragement

2007-08-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

The worst enemy a leader faces is discouragement.
Beat it!
Leadership without courage is no leadership at all.
People rally to the brave.
They will celebrate your courageous, risk - taking victory!
If there is no one encouraging you, encourage yourself!
Tell yourself today is your day.
Go on. Say it! "Today will be fantastic!"
You're full of courage.

Exam Week??

2007-08-20T15:52:00.000+08:00

Checking our blog and i decided that i should blogging again. LOL!
Especially for those who had faithfully visiting our blog. HAHA

School exam is here. CA2

And it is also the marking week for us teachers. That's what most teachers hate. Marking, marking and marking. But yet again this is the job of a teacher.

Why i hate marking week?
You have to stay back after school to complete the whole level of P3 exam paper. Start 1.30pm - 5.30pm. Today - English Paper 2. Thank God i was assign to mark the close passage, easier to mark compared to the comprehension.

Tomorrow will be maths and Thursday Science paper! =(

Taking the time of tea break to blog with my school laptop and eating my curry puff.

Alright starting our 2nd half of marking again.

To all students having exam:
DO YOUR BEST AND GOD WILL DO THE REST!

Contact

2007-07-17T00:41:00.001+08:00

Let your fingers do the walking.
Use the phone.
Leave messages on answering machines.
Love the phone.
Don't hate the phone it's one of your most incredible tools.
Contact is the essence of your network.
Contact leads to communication.
Communication leads to connection.
Connection leads to destiny.
Contact all the people in your relational world regularly.
Contact, contact, contact.

Rest

2007-07-17T00:39:00.000+08:00

Lost your 'cutting edge'?
You have to stop chopping to sharpen the axe - can't sharpen it while you're still chopping.
It will not grow sharper if you keep on using it.
It will only grow duller.
We stop cutting, we rest.
We recover our 'cutting edge.'
With less effort and more wisdom we find ourselves succeeding.
An Indian proverb says 'the bow that is always strung becomes slack.'
The best time to relax is before you have to.
If we make no time to rest, our mortal frame will force us to do so, somehow.

Quote - 'If the axe is dull, and one does not sharpen the edge, then he must use more strength' - Ecclesiastes 10:10

Giving Significance

2007-06-22T01:04:00.000+08:00

If you've experienced something great, there will have been someone who had a hand in making that happen.
Send them a note.
Say "thank you!"
Phone them up. Tell them how good it was for you!
All of us live for significance.
Does my life count?
We can let people know - it does!

Quote - 'Gratitude is the mother of all virtues.'

Quality Focus

2007-06-15T00:33:00.000+08:00

Make your mind dwell on the beautiful, the good, the true, the pure.
Focus on low quality things and you'll develop low quality living.
Focus on high quality subjects and develop a high quality life.
How we see ourselves is what we will become.
What our mind is preoccupied with makes us the kind of people we are.
We conform to the picture in our mind.
What's your focus right now?

Quote - 'Whatever things are true, ...noble, ...just, ...pure, ...lovely, ...good report, ...virtue ...anything praiseworthy-- meditate on these things.' - Phil 4:8

CONFRONTING

2007-06-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

Get to them before they get to you!
Leaders must learn to confront situations before they have to.
Many don't confront until it's desperate.
They wait till they have no choice.
When we're angry enough we'll confront anything.
However, anger clouds our minds and destroys relationships.
Deal with it today with a calm spirit, not tomorrow with frustration.

Learning

2007-06-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

Having two ears and one mouth equals the communication ratio.
Leaders are learners. They listen twice as much as they talk.
The more I listen the less I talk.
The less I talk, the more I listen.
The more I listen, the more I learn.
The more I learn the less mistakes I make!
Today I'm listening to people with aggressive interest.

Quote - 'The ultimate competitive advantage lies in an organisation's ability to learn and rapidly transform that learning into action. - Jack Welch

The willing heart

2007-06-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

Energy is high when our will is engaged.
Without enthusiasm, strength for the task will flag.
When kids 'have to do' what they don't want to do, shoulders sag and knuckles drag.
When they're doing what they want to do... streaked lightning!
Creativity, positivity and fun, follow the willing heart.
Burnout follows those who live a life they don't want to live.
Getting willing is a decision I make.
I want to do this!

Quote - 'Toil, when willing, groweth less' - Bayard Taylor

Laziness

2007-05-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

The heart of the lazy will be ruled by frustration and anger unless effort matches desire.
The thrill of the hunt and the kill is all the lazy person wants.
To gut the fish, skin the bear or butcher the beast is too much like hard work.
The lazy man lives in an unfinished world - Nothing is completed.
The excitement of starting a thing soon fades to hard work that the lazy person does not want to do.

'The desire of the lazy man kills him, for his hands refuse to labour. - Prov 21:25

2007-05-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

It was great seeing Sun again! We had lots of fun and of course catching up. Sun is such an inspiration and i really admire her for all that she has done. All her hard work, her effort, all that she has to faced and gone through, she is just wonderful!

We were at the airport waiting for her early in the morning. With sleepy eyes and gigantic mouths (yawns), we finally saw her walking out.. It was just so.. awww beyond words.

For those who werent there...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I3LhtqrlaOM

SUN we love you!!! =)

Family Day

2007-05-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

DISTRACTION

2007-05-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

The issue is not so much focusing on the right things but rather, not becoming distracted by the wrong things.

There are a thousand and one things we can give ourselves to, but there is going to be one thing above all others that we must devote our highest attention to.

We cannot do everything.

We are not called to do everything.

We should not attempt to do everything.

By Phil Pringle

2007-04-30T23:26:00.001+08:00

Diligence

2007-04-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

Leadership falls to the diligent.
Those not diligent work for someone else.
Diligence assumes responsibility; meets deadlines; keeps promises; studies all the areas of your business; keeps at a thing until it is completed.
The American Heritage Dictionary defines diligence as;
1. Earnest and persistent application to an undertaking; steady effort; assiduity.
2. Attentive care; heedfullness.

Without diligence we forfeit control, influence and leadership not just in other's lives, but also in our own.

Enlarge

2007-04-17T01:14:00.000+08:00

As we get larger, we must get larger.
It's impossible to run a large organisation like a small one.
Bigger groups attract bigger people.
We have to become bigger people to handle bigger people.
Enlargement means - I get more generous;
I widen my acceptance of others; I'm more merciful;
I plan bigger, longer, grander plans; I stretch!
I cope with more.
I have more patience, greater love, stronger joy, firmer purpose.
I enlarge!

Quote - 'Enlarge the place of your tent.' - Isaiah 54

Focus

2007-04-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

What you focus on is what you get!
The power of focus is undervalued at the leader's own great peril.
Focus is to an achiever what oxygen is to lungs. It's essential.
Nothing else will do.
The thousand and one things stealing your focus must be tamed into second place.
Distraction is possibly the worst enemy the visionary will face.
While you're doing one thing you're not doing another.
If what you're not doing is what you should be doing then what you are doing is distracted futility!

Shiying!!

2007-04-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

To our friend in Taiwan
thank you for working so hard! hope it has been a great exposure for you!
We are waiting for you to come back and have the usual fellowship again!
See u really really soon!
Miss you!

Self-Image

2007-04-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

Your self-image is the likeness of God.
You are not God or a god, but His image is stamped in you.
The me I see is the me I'll be.
You have the mind of Christ.
You have the nature of the Holy Spirit.
You are complete in Him.
The fullness of the Godhead is in you.
If you see yourself through the eyes of others you will generally be defeated.
God tells Gideon, 'You mighty man of valour.'Jesus tells Peter, 'Upon you I'll build my church.'
He tells you, 'Fear not for I am with you.
'You are a new species of being!
You are forgiven, righteous and holy in His sight!
You are strong, successful and prosperous!

Happy Birthday!

2007-03-24T04:42:00.000+08:00

To the best CGL in the whole World:
Happy Birthday Sis Jerb!
Hope you like the many surprises and gifts!
Looking forward to more breakthroughs with you! =)

Wisdom

2007-03-24T03:50:00.000+08:00

Leaders are called to be wise.
Read the Book of Proverbs all the time.
God 'alone' is wise.
We are not wise without Him or His Book.
We ask Him for wisdom.
We seek for wisdom in the pages of Scripture.
When we don't know what to do we ask God.
'Give me wisdom Lord.
Show me what to do.
'Wisdom knows what to do, when to do it and how to do it.
Wisdom behaves right in life.
It understands appropriateness.
Be wise, very wise.
Wisdom wins.

Attitudes

2007-03-15T01:43:00.000+08:00

Our success depends upon whether our attitude is positive or negative,
sour or sweet, good or bad.
All of life flows from attitude.
An 'up' attitude equals an 'up' life.
Down attitude, down life.
Negative attitudes form a poor platform for action.
We change our attitudes from;

Fear to Faith 'I believe God',
Anxiety to Trust 'I trust God',
Anger to Peace 'I forgive them'
Hatred to Love 'I will love them'

'Attitude and personality are as important as experience and ability.
Choose wisely.' - Brian Tracy

People

2007-03-15T01:42:00.000+08:00

Whatever you are doing, remember you're doing it in a people world.
You're not building a great organisation, company or church - you're building a great people.
People will build whatever you are building; if you build them.
Win people all the time.
Especially the volunteers for their wages are recognition, appreciation and honor.
Don't neglect to pay everyone his or her due.
Recognise, appreciate, thank, encourage and honour everyone.
Building people is your business!
The best chef can only do so much with a lump of meat.
Whether you'll come back is up to the people who serve you.
Clients will even put up with mistakes if the people part blesses them.
Contact, communicate and connect.
Win people!

'He that wins souls is wise' - Proverbs 11:30

Criticism

2007-03-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

One of the most difficult challenges for a leader is the inevitable criticism frombeing out front. The more successful you become the greater the criticism will be.
People clothe jealousy, prejudice and envy with legitimate sounding criticisms.
Henry Louis Mencken said 'criticism is prejudice made plausible.'
If you care too much what others think, you will be hurt.
Care less what others think.
You cannot make everyone happy.
Stay true to your course.
Nothing of worth is achieved without opposition.

Winston Churchill declared; 'Opposition is the natural environment of effective leaders. Resisting extremereaction to criticism is the key to steadiness at the helm. One of the deciding marksof a great leader is the way he handles criticism. Criticism is easy, achievement is difficult.'

Equation

2007-02-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

One plus one equals two.
Do a kindness to someone and they will be endeared to you.
Be unkind and they will be estranged from you no matter how polite they are.
Do things by the numbers.
Be methodical.
Be systematic.
Don't be overwhelmed by the problem.
Do each step of a methodical, systematic solution.
Do this and then that.
See this person, then that one.
Even though each step may not seem to achieve much.
All the steps will ultimately add up to a positive solution.

'And just as you want men to do to you, you also do to them likewise.' - Luke6:31

Punctuality

2007-02-26T00:12:00.000+08:00

If you're always early you're never late!
Time is more valuable than money.
People pay money to save time.
When we're late we steal time from others and ourselves.
Tardiness is the tap-root of a host of character faults.
My lateness says 'I don't care about you;
I'm more important than you;
you can wait for me;
I'm disorganised;
I'm undisciplined.'
It's not so much about time management but about managing ourselves.
Love others. Be on time. Even early!
From now on.

Lovely Saturday!

2007-02-25T00:24:00.000+08:00

Its has been a rather long week without much work or should i say is a relatively short week scheduled with lots of fun. Chinese New Year creeped by with many of us smiling from ear to ear having to count our income through the many and maybe yet boring visitations. The thought of having to entertain the annual million dollar question reduced the visitations to a much dreaded state. The questions are getting tougher each year leaving me with just shovering my hands at them and laughing my chances to fulfill a full model answer.

Of course there will be something for me to look forward to. The gathering of the Saints! I met up with Oli and Jeanie on Monday night. The meet up with the two beloved bible schools frens i guesed has to be plan weeks ahead considering we are too focus with what we are busy with. The dinner at MOs Burger seemd a quick one but we as sat down and chatted, we walked down the memory lanes of our bible school days. It was really wonderful catching up with them. They never failed to inspire me with what they are doing in their lives!

After which the movie "Norbit" with lian , shing and the boys awaits me the rest of the night. The show was quite alright and yeah i tried to laugh those tiredness away.. And the steamboat marathon from steph house house to jinlian hse was indeed enough to blow our stomach up! The 3 days st Sitel working too has drained away all my rest time and i was struck with a slight flu. On wed morning, i woke up real early at 8am and after searching my mind for barely a second , i jumped out of my bed despite the weary body tied to the bed. Work starts at 830am...

Friday cg cum bbq was really great. Missed e99 heaps. It was really great catching up with them. Thanks to Jean, Alfred, Gladwin, Sandy and i managed to catch "Ghost Rider" for just $2 bucks in the luxury of free serving of popcorns,hotdogs and nachos. The initneray up next is shopping! That word sounds outdated to me. Well, i guess i did really have a great time spending the whole sat with them! From combing from shops to shops, running in and out of the fitting rooms, laughing at each other at our silly conversations, enjoying every single minute of the fellowship, i am looking forward to another great outing!!

Motives

2007-02-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

If our motives are pure our spirit will remain positive.
The pure in heart easily 'see' God.
The impure in heart are easily cynical.
Impure motivations produce botched results.
We change our motivations from;
a. Selfish Amition to Self Denial
b. Power hunger to Servanthood
c. Gain to Giving
Our commitment to Christ means we choose to do the right things for the right reasons and let the chips fall as they may.

Building on strength

2007-02-03T01:21:00.000+08:00

Build on strengths, not on your weaknesses.
Know what your strengths are and build on those.
Know your weaknesses and let others do that.
What are you good at?
Not what do you think you are good at, or what would you like to be good at, but what works in your world?
This is God's gift in you.
Accept it, nourish it, develop it, maximise it and do it!
Just because something works for someone else, doesn't mean it will work for you.
Learn from others but don't get hijacked.
Structure your organisation around the gifts in peoples lives.
Build on strengths.

When I'm With You

2007-02-02T14:39:00.000+08:00

by Amber Dawn Jenne

I feel your soft, sweet touch upon my shoulder
Your heart beating with mine
The sweetest words you whisper
And those you leave behind

You glimpse at me and smile
This takes my breath away
Like the setting of the sun
On a warm mid-evening day

Your most sweet and innocent kiss
Looking deep into my eyes
Could keep me in this moment
For all the ends of time

Hand in hand, Heart to heart
For I know when I'm with you
Eternity is forever
And forever is, I Love You!

A Tree of Blessing

2007-01-31T17:35:00.000+08:00

Wow...yesterday was our 1st time in Riverwalk for our ldrs mtg. That place was better than i expected. Heard that venue was used to be dannon sch. (nice sch..well now i shd said nice mtg place for us..haha)

I felt we had a great time during our W&P. Esp when Chee Foo (our newly wedded cgl..woohoo)gave a word of prophecy. He mentioned about that we are the tree...A tree that bear fruits, a tree of blessing, where everyone around us will be blessed etc etc...When i heard the Word, tears just started rolling down my cheeks. I asked God can i be that tree too. I wanna be a fruitful person, I wana all the ppl around me to be blessed...my family, my members from N256, friends and many many more.

As i continued to focus on that vision of the tree. God directed my vision to the roots of the tree. From there i see that in order to be a fruitful and a tree of blessing u gotta have deep roots. Then i see the roots growing deeper and deeper, searching for the source of water. Deep roots = strong relationship, Water = God.
In another words, to be a tree of blessing you gotta have a strong relationship with God. Just like how a tree grows, it has to always depend on a few soruces, sunlight and water, we need to constantly depend on God for our growth. Cool...even thought i knew, heard, learnt this before, but this is just like another fresh reminder from Him again.

I want and will be the TREE that constantly searching for my source of WATER!

God the ANswer

2007-01-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

Because of the Christ's resurrection.
Instead of death reigning, we now reign in life.
We are healthy instead of sickness,
Life instead of death,
Light instead of darkness,
Wealth instead of poverty,
And we have solutions for the problems people face.
There is not a problem that God has not already provided the answer for.
There is not a problem any of us face that is bigger than the God inside us.
There is not a problem that mankind faces that cannot be solved through the complete salvation of the cross of Christ.

Excellence

2007-01-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

Excellence is not an accident.
Someone went the second mile.
There are no traffic jams on the second mile.
If a job is worth doing, it's worth doing well.
If it's not worth doing then it's not worth doing at all.
Do the job well.
Be well known for quality at every level.
Go the extra.
Do the unexpected.
Suprise your world with the best!!

Never settle for just getting the job done. 'Excell'. - Tom Hopkins

NEW YEAR. NEW LIFE. NEW BEGINNING

2007-01-18T16:53:00.000+08:00

Hi Hi...ohh today MY Birthday! So happy!!! Thanks for all your wishes and prayers! =)
Just can't believe of my age now. Time and age really flies =P Well anyway as long as i am still very young at heart...hee. For those who know my age...SssHHhhh.

Some of my CG members (serene, si ying, wei ying, brandon, dannon, christopher) plus Ting & Garvin actually called in at 12.05am this morning for conf to sing me Birthday song! i'm so touched! but just can't stop laughing. They sang super slowly, til someone shouted "hey can sing faster or not".. LOL. Really thank you for all ur effort, joy & laughter. you guys are the BEST! Hoping to celebrate all our birhtdays foverver & ever & ever & ever......til eternity..umhh...by typing this make me think if we ever celebrate birthday in heaven? ok, anyway think we will celebrate a greater event like our victories rather then just birthday!

Really looking for a great year ahead for 2007! Breakthrough upon breakthrough, blessing upon blessing! Yes, let's work towards that together.

Am Celebrating today but was mourning yesterday for our dear late bro-in-christ T.R.Y. Like many had said he will always be remembered in our hearts. His courage had really impacted me, how he had fight against his sickness & still trusting God. From this, I tell myself that whatever pains & struggles, i can overcome it. This has also make me treasure my family & the friends around me even more.

So friends, pls cherish the very moment, time, people we have here now when there is chance to share, to forgive, to give, to love ya =)

LOVE ALL OF YOU, MY DEAR FRIENDS!

Blue Sky

2007-01-05T01:00:00.000+08:00

Every heartbeat lies a dream of greatness
Deep inside us treasures unfold
Reaching for the stars that shine above
I want to live my life for all its worth

Every sunrise dawns a new beginning
And when the night comes
A fire burns within
EverydayI live what I want to give
The very best of me
So let the dreams within come alive

Flying to the blue sky
SOaring high above
Every cloud
Every mountain
Its a new horizon

Flying to the blue sky
Reach for something more
And through it all
I will stand tall
I won't give up
I am stronger than before

Each step i take
I reach for greater height
For in the end
Destiny is in my hand
This is the chance
I give the best i have

Brainpower

2006-12-08T01:23:00.000+08:00

Your brain is a computer.
Your tongue is the keyboard.
Most of your life is lived on autopilot.
You program your brain with your tongue.
Your brain (computer) then lives out what it has been told.
If the keyboard programs in that you're strong, you will be.
If you say you're sick, you will be.
Your brain simply accepts what it is told.
What are you telling your brain?
What programs are you installing?
What information are you punching into your Rolls Royce computer?
Say, 'I'm blessed!'

E=MC2

2006-12-01T14:34:00.000+08:00

November the 29th and 30th were days i marked down a star on my calender. They were days i am counting down to. These 2 days were really days we all looked forward to. Its one of the mega event of the zone.

On wed morning, i work up earlier than usual to get myself pumped up for this event. I want to make sure i am not late. Shing and i at were allocated to do Chorus Board for all sessions. When sis Jerb informed me, you bet i was over the moon! I was really expecting to really learn alot of things this time round. Met up with shing, lian and Joanne and boon lay and we made our way to church. The waiting time for the bus and the queue just reminded me of bible school days, how i missed them!

Once we reached, there were no time to lose, we immediately got down to work. There was alot of touching up to do. Thanks to alex, we managed to get all the whole system going la. Throughout teh whole camp, i realised there were so much to understand, learn and grasp for CB. It was really a good experience after all!

Session1: Bro Edmund talked abt us being relevant, about Kristos Kai Cosmos. The whole afternoon was taken up by sports events which all the youths engaged themselves in a time of great workout. I heard many played with enthusiasm and all their might! I guess theya really had a great time sweating out in spite of the unexpected rain!

Session 2: The highlight were the dance and the drama. Can i say their late night pratices and effort did not g0 to waste. It was really enjoyable the whole performance. I was really lookng forward to the preaching of e word that night. I know Bro Ed was going to lay hands. My heart was open and ready for G0d to move! God came and it was an awesome night!

Session 3 : Sis Jerb preached about encounters with G0d! It was real solid preaching and sharing! SHe shared how acceptance and relationships were important to her but becausw she made an decision to love G0d more, she let go and let God. Smtg happened and her life changed! Terrific testimony! I needed a touch badly from God that morning! God is always the faithful one that nevers fails to turn up when we need Him the most! I need to make a decision! The amazing race in the afternoon was what everyone was looking forward to! The bunch of excited youths got into sporty attires and were ready to conquer what was in their way to come. Before we could start anything, e rain came down on us.. The youths then just spend the afternoon improving on the drama. But still, the finale could not be missed! Since the water bombs were all ready in position, we all decide : "Its war time!" What happened next i guessed its very obvious.. Everyone soaked to the skin! =)

Session 4: The finale! The youths exhibited their creativity and talents in the T-shirt, shoe n cap design! The highlight of the night was of course the dramas from the different groups! I was really amused and amazed at their acting! LAughters just filled up the room when some of them did some of this world stunts! The word at night was about having CHARISMA. That night just drew me closer to God when all of us just kneel down at our feet and worship our King! When we drew closer, JEsus drew even closer..

The camp ended on a high note with all of us singing the all time fav fellowship song! "... Keep smiling, keep shining..." On one hand Shing and I heaved a sign of relieve but on the other hand, it was really fast these 2 days.. i have not had enough fun yet!

On the overall, it was really good to see everone more in love with Jesus! Decisions made, life transformed and definitely more on fire for Jesus!

Encounters = More of Christ in Culture!

Twenty-Four

2006-11-23T00:42:00.000+08:00

This is the number that plays a siginificant part in my life. It has a special meaning. It makes me matures every single year w/o fail! yeah but i am not alone! I am glad i can celebrate e growing old process with yinghui and caijun. Laughs~

E99 really caught me in a surprise when they started switching off the lights, singing happy birthday loudly into my ears, presented me with a tremendously delicious yummy chocolate cake and of coz an awesome gift! n some one shouted hey you are 24~~

Spent e first half of Monday at work. tonnes of work to finish but i left them on my in-tray cause my mind was bewilded with fun and enjoyment. I met up with some little sec school girls, they were really nice. We went aimlessly to bugis for a simple and quick lunch and headed down to orchard heeren when the shops start to bored us. After a long walk, the soreness on our feet crawled to us like ants to sweets. A curvy smile brightened up our face when we saw the benches few metres away from us. I departed from the girls when our feet were restored and energized once again after that much desired rest.

Met up with Michelle. She is a new fren i got to know at work. She is awesome can. Went shopping with her at ZARA. She got her stuffsss and she got me a nice cookie lollipop. Jealous right? "P Thanks pal for brightening and spicing my work life up with those phone calls of yours. I am expecting more.. =)

And it was the much awaited dinner at Newton with the cg for bev farewell. She is going to america to study. Gonna miss her. Well i was late. My cg surprised me again, sang happy birthday in e mid of no where and Kim did some silly performance.. haha really appreciated their effort~ It was hardly 15 mins at newton and i was back at orchard for coffee. It was nice relaxing and comforting myself in the soothing atmosphere. Raymond got me a new drink he made himself.. h2O + liquified sugar..

Sandy was supposed to meet me up for dinner with shiying.. but it didnt happened it the end. My stomach was already pulling my brains to remind me abt eating. I went home, sat down and wanted to sleep, then came a knock on e door. Sandy!!! She was just so crazy can.. with shing and Kailin sang, sang and sang. Thanks girls.. muffin + lollipop = so sweet! thats u girls! =)

Sunday subzone event was great. We had fun after all those long tiring nights of discussions.. it was all worth it. A precious experience indeed for all. After that, caijun , lian, steph and me went for a humble dinner at the food court and gluped down the ice cream at Swensens. As usual , laughters all the way.

Spell it~ T>W>E>N>T>Y F>O>U>R

L.I.F.E

2006-11-10T01:50:00.000+08:00

A basic law of life is this - what lives, grows.
Churches that are dead do not grow.
Dead products go nowhere.
Recognise what's dead and bury it.
Don't allow politics, loyalties, or sentiments hijack your resources in an attempt to keep a dead thing alive.
If the horse is dead dismount!
People are attracted to life!
Create life all around you.
Be bright and love living.
People want this more than money.
If it's alive, it will grow. Basic!

The Urgency

2006-11-08T15:35:00.000+08:00

MArk 9:18-29
God showed me what the disciples could not do because they did not believe or rather they thought that the situation they faced with were beyond redemption or even a miracle could hardly had happened. And yet compared to them was the father of a sickly. He being desperate could believe with all his heart asking JEsus to deliver his son. He cried and begged Jesus to do so IMMEDIATELY!

GOd then reminded me about how urgent am i about my breakthrus and miracles i wanted so much in my life. Do i wait for things to happen and promised myself that next time it willnot happen again? Do i continue to let discouraging thoughts and the seemed hopeless situations to overwhelm me and pull me down? Do i wait for others to receive their breakthrus first then mine? Or have i really fasted and cried out to God for that i desired? The father was urgent to heal his son. His actions were immediate.. Did i do the same as well?

The disciples on the other hand questioned Jesus why could not cast out the demons. I believe most of the time when things dun happened the way we want it, when we think we have given our best, when we have sacrificed, why didnt GOd move? Probably the root cause is just unbelief.. Jesus said that the remedy for unbelief is fasting and praying!

With that Jesus promised " All things are possible to those who believe.."

BELIEVE + FASTING + PRAYING = POSSIBILITIES !!!

Breaking through the month of Nov!

2006-11-07T17:53:00.000+08:00

Another month is gone just like that. I reviewed the past 30 days, what i have achieved and wat i have not. Many regrets pestered me for not stepping out in faith in several occasions. I guess i can only shake my head at those passive moments. But there are days that i remembered how God brought me and showed me new grounds that i need to conquer. Faced with great challenges and uncertainty, i mapped out my route with Jesus as the compasss of my soul. I am slowly yet steadly entering into a new part of my life God has prepared for me.

Last sun i went for chorus board interview with "Father" Ian. It was really a much desired moment i was looking forward to for months. Finally after much pestering from Sis Jerb, i was granted that pass to access into chorus board ministry. Ian said that i will be in the preps team to start with then slowly i can make my way to the service operations. In that flow, i will paint a full picture of how the ministry attributed its importance to the church. cool right?

Last sun was also Arise & Build. I simply cant wait for that moment to pledge to come. I knew i had to move out of my comfort zone and stepped into the realm of faith giving. The fear was so intimating that it gripped my heart. but as we have learnt in cg, faith is not in the absence of fear, so in e substance of things hope for, i knew i have to give that extra that will pleased God and eventually landed in abundance blessings and arriving at the breakthrus which i am crying out to God for.

I had a week long fasting. Right after breaking fast, went for Mac for cg fellowship then dinner at Newton with Sis JErb, lian, sandy and steph. It was really a nice time catching up and laughing away. Last night, i went for dinner and lian to celebrate our dear fren amber's bday. We had our dinner at Blue Jaz and then headed home. It was real relaxing as we loose our day's tiredness and stress into the smoothing jazzy music. Slowly our mood also groove to that jazzy atmosphere as we continued our hearty fellowship. We had such a great time, shall patronise there again!

For the next two days, i guessed i have to spend time at home. I was awarded MC due to food poisoning. Great time to catch up with my beauty sleep!

Show the Way

2006-10-26T17:02:00.000+08:00

Hi Friends,
Check out this Flash.
Maybe some of you have seen it before, as for me i seen it many times but everytime when i look at it, it still touches me very much. Hope that you will be touched and impacted by it too. Just remember Don't Give up easily in the things you do...especially your walk with GOD.
God Bless You

Sundaes!

2006-10-16T23:05:00.000+08:00

I just love my sunday!!

Looking forward to more sundays like this!

Have been reeally busy and tired. Will blog proper real soon! =)

The BEL rings! ^_^

2006-10-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

Its OCt already!

With much anticipation and excitement, I embraced and welcomed the long awaited weekends with a great BIG hug. It was no special weekend for me though its children's day. Anyhow, I was exceptionally stirred up for no reason. It was probably I had a long busy week.

The marvelous weekend unfolded with mooncake cg! Time really flies. I still remembered last year we had our mooncake festival celebration @ Braddell Hill where we had so much fun laughing and acting the ancient history of this meaningful event. This year, no doubt, fun covered and drowned all of us when we dis-engaged ourselves from the tiredness of the day and relaxed ourselves into the celebratory mood. Enthusiasm dotted the whole atmosphere.

Cg was pretty incredible! We had a good time listening to sis Jerb preaching. Her weekly dosage of inspirational and challenging teaching never once fails me to draw closer to God and pushing me up to another level! we were educated how people have different love languages and how crucial it is to exercise the right ones. We were presented a little quiz to find out more about ourselves. The quiz categorized my primary love language to quality time, followed by equal counts of words of affirmation and acts of service. Its quite amazing! Have you done yours already?

The night ended "early" as lian and I went for supper at 1am. With a pair of heavy, sleepy eyes and a slouchy body, i dragged myself to the car and drove myself home in my mini comfortable Getz at 3am.

Sat was just so plain and dull for me. I just stayed home and went for dinner at my uncle's place in the evening. My comfortable bed discourages me from stepping out of the house. Initially i was very reluctant to go but i think i have alot of catching up and restutions to make, it seemed like i was presented with an unwilling choice.

Finally it was sunday! I was looking forward to pastor's preaching. This is the beginning week of our building fund. This year i just cant wait to give and give! God has already prepared my heart a few weeks back during OPM. I nearly fell off my chair when i got the impression of my pledge amount. Its all about faith and sacrifice! Jesus, i wanna build YOu a great house!
I love Your house.. its where your glory dwells...

After service, we went to LJS @ Tampines> we immersed ourselves into a fun time of fellowship coupled with the usual ingredients of jokes and laughters. As the fellowship came to a close, Kailin , Jean, Wendy and I made our way down to city hall. They accompanied me to Davis to get an acoustic guitar which i planned on my agenda ages ago. After more than half an hour of dilemma, seeing the bored look on wendy and JEan's face, i finally settled on the chosen one! Its all worth it! I love my new Takamine Guitar! This is the first step to my breakthru in my guitar playing! =)

The next itinerary of the day was to catch a movie. Ms horsey and i were dying to watch no matter what. But it seems like the cinema has no chance to earn our $9.50. OUr bubbles were burst when sandy and shi ying had their usual last min meetings to attend. That left us relentlessly @ New York! New York! at City Link. We let out a sign of relief as we finally get t0 rest our feet after a long few hours walk.

In the midst of savouring our expensive dinner and heart-felt sharing, i saw Kailin face changed. She looked stunned! I thought she saw PT! Then she chanted: "Hey! It's sis Bel!" I turned my head so quickly that i think i nearly twisted my neck! haha! In the end, I only managed to catch a glimsp of her glory.. so sad! She was with her team of choir leaders, Man, for the next few minutes i think i got indigestion coz my focus was not on the cuisine on my table anymore but a few tables away. It just so happened that i know one of the choir members. She told me they were going to celebrate sis Bel's belated bday.. In a hit of moment, i felt like running to her and sing her a bday song! ahaha~ But i din. I guess i can only do that in my dream.

And so it was time to pack up and go home. Our first stop was to the toilet first. While waiting for an available cubicle, sis Bel walked passed me. I nearly fainted. I froze. Breathless, i was cemented to the ground. Then from all that was within me, i let out a faint : "helllloooo sis bel!!" With an angelic voice, she turned her head and smiled at me and started talking to me. My heart was racing! I was tongue tied.. In that very short few seconds, we had a fair exchange of conversation. Goodness! From her expressions, they told me that she remembered me! Before she went off, she smiled again and said : "See you ard!"I experienced heaven descend on earth that moment! ha~ Its better than getting my new guitar!

The trip home was a smiley one! =)

We saw this at Davis.. so cool right!

The image of God -- US!

2006-09-26T00:33:00.000+08:00

Scripture makes clear that the image God has made us in, is His own.
Our destiny is to be His image in this Earth.
We are extensions of His character.
God's plan is to conform us to the image of His Son, Jesus Christ.
We are made in the image of a being that created the entire universe in just six days.
He did it with the words of His mouth.
You and I create our personal universe the same way.
Mark 11:23
'if you tell a mountain to be removed and don't doubt in your heart, it will move.'

Amazing isnt it?
The world we live in is form by the words we say
My world is in my mouth!
I decide how well i live!

Discipline

2006-09-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

Discipline is doing the things that you do not want to do.
Discipline is also choosing not to do something that you want to do.
Discipline is also consistently doing the things that you should do.
Discipline is the making of character; indiscipline, the unmaking of character.
Doing something repeatedly creates a habit; a way of life.
Our habits form our lives, for good or bad.
The world lies at the feet of the disciplined.

Leading or Managing?

2006-09-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

The issue is not so much focusing on the right things but rather, not becoming distracted by the wrong things.
There are a thousand and one things we can give ourselves to, but there is going to be one thing above all others that we must devote our highest attention to.
We cannot do everything.
We are not called to do everything.
We should not attempt to do everything.

My Jesus~

2006-09-16T14:25:00.000+08:00

MY Jesus
I call your name
You're broken for all my pain
MY Healer
You touch my world
By your stripes
I'm whole again..

Songs sung from the bottom of their hearts, words that meant the world t0 some devotees. Hands raise, tears run, on their knees they cries out t0 the air. The atmosphere was still, yet i felt there was smtg that lingers that made your heart yields f0r more of it. The experience was fresh for a rookie like me. I was rooted the ground when i was greeted with such gestures surrounding me. N0t understanding a single thing out of this every sun, relentless i decided to be different under the persuasive power of my frens. As i stepped into the unkn0wn, my w0rld seemed t0 have enter into another dimension.

Everything seemed to have change from that minute onwards. Unknowingly the name of Jesus became an added vocab to my dictionery. I can never comprehend with that simple head of mine the power and life that came together with the gift presented to me by the person Himself. With the many excuses i gave to my mum, i made my way successfully to church every sunday! But this temporary plan of mine was n0t so excellent after all. I confessed the mischief i was uP to for the last few sundays. Of course things were n0t a bed of r0ses for me after that. Despite the continuous persecutions and hurling from family and relatives, i found myself closer t0 Jesus! Missing service and cg i didn n0t even dare gave it a thought! Gradually and surely i breakthru my PO and i am thankful for where i am n0w.~

Th0se thoughts were evoked bcoz on fri cg, i was reminded during the very last few minutes h0w much i need to love GOd. He gave His all just f0r me.. all i need t0 d0 is t0 give my all as well.. at that m0ment Jesus said: it includes all yr pain, yr burdens, fears, worries.. u kn0w la everything! How much i need to tell Him... Jesus i love You!

When i was lost
You found me

When darkness embraced me
You light up every part of my life

When my heart was emptied
You filled me

When i was alone
You were my best friend

When the g0ing gets tough
You keep me going

When my tears run
You keep them in a bottle

When i am in trouble
You carry me

When i was discouraged
You give me hope

When i am nothing
You give me love

KL Emerge!

2006-09-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

I am back from the mission field! It was such a fruitful time in KL! Woke up early mon morning at 6am. I was super tired, i wanted to sleep s0me more but the thought of going mission just recharged me and g0t me running t0 the bathroom to wash up! Left the house at 7am. I was desperately late coz i am mtg sandy at Newton mrt at 730am to catch the coach! I got to squeeze my way to the train station with e working crowd, burdened by my enormous luggage! It was just so slow! In the bus i realised i left my guitar back at home.. so i only got e chords w/o the guitar.. how silly is that?

Well, we boarded the bus at Hotel Asia. It was an airbus.. super comfortable chairs with pillow and leg rest. U were right! M0st of us were in dreamland when the bus cruised all the way to KL. After a long 4.5 hours trip, we reached our destination! We hopped d0wn the bus, redeemed our luggage, dashed into the hotel rooms, combed the place, in seconds we settled d0wn and off t0 the shopping mall we went! We received news that the last bus coming broke down and will only reached in the late evening, s0 we got ourselves equipped with some groceries for the next few days from giant. It goes without saying, the shops there were just s0 tempting, we were all drooling, super tempted to buy every single items we set eyes upon. Thank God for self-control, we were spared the impulse buying. Coz we g0t an important agenda for our RM, that is to pay off the "deluxe suite" which housed us for 4 days! It costs us a burning h0t RM 233 per night which burnt a hole in our pockets.. >_<

As evening drew, all of us gathered.. we met up and started the whole mission by commiting it to the Lord. We prayed and worshipped God in the convention hall. The absence of a guitarist and confined in a stuffy room did not stop us in crying out to God for a mighty revival in KL! It was a free sauna session for all as we left eagerly and headed f0r the first assignment of the day. We prepared and stapled 1000 inserts together for the conf in n0 time. Thats e power of team effort!

That aside.. Breakfast was sumptuous every morning. But we dun have the luxury of enjoying it as m0st of the days we were just drowned in our tiredness and just slept in. Tuesday was a whole day fo preparation for the first night of emerge at the convention hall. It started at 730pm. Ppl started streamin in only about 730pm omwards as its a working day and also a rainy day. It seems like queueing up its not their practice. Everyone was quite disciplined in entering the hall. I guess that make the ushers job much easier.. hee!

Wed and thurs morn, we had our session in KL CHC building itself. We really felt at home with their hospitality. One of the usher, also a CGL, also a team IC, she went all the way out just to get coffee for sandy and me. You thought its nothing.. but coz the church is situated in some industrial area so its actuali miles out to the nearest convenient stall.. so touching right! The morning session was just s0 awesome.. most attendees are adults and some greyed hair citizens and they are much more excitied than our youths back in S'pore.. i cant help but think ... who loves God more? The morning sessions were abit struggle.. The Zzz monster jabbed most of us with some drowsy injection, for a few minutes i couldnt resist but closed my eyes. Eh u know the hall is small, we dun want Pst Kong to catch us dozing off.. But i promised i didnt missed out much. The preaching by Pst Kong was life changing, the P&W was so ministering, the presence of God just saturated our hearts and melted everyone in the room as we cried "Abba Father!" How i wished Jesus would bring me up to heaven that moment! =)

The finale lasted for 5 hours or so. The overflowing crowd was unexpected. We had a 2000 over ppl coming to join us. I heard the ushers said.. we dun have enough chairs! All i can say .. the mission trip was fruitful... I was in the BKL (bao ka liao) team. A total of 9 of us! So we did everything from ushering, bookstore to children's church and even security.. cool right! Really felt God moved so much in KL and in our own lives. Although we din reali do alot, i felt we all moved on to a new level with Jesus, the love deepens, the tents expanded! It was just great!

KL has emerged! I have emerged!

Sis Bel!!!

She is my inspiration!

Our breakfast every morning!
Looks yummy right! *sLurp*

3 more months to Graduate!

2006-09-01T00:05:00.000+08:00

Time flies!!! Can't believe that in just another 3 months i will be graduating from SOT. For the past 7 months in SOT was awesome! Indeed an experience that all of you shoud taste and part-take of it as well. The encounter with God during the P&W before the class, the revelations received during the teaching, the life story & experience shared by the local as well as the WOF pastors, these already worth of all our school fees! =)

There are so many things that i am so excited to share but just don't know where to start. haha. Beside all these great encounter and experience, SOT is also a place of stretch physically, mentally, financially and ofcause spiritually. With every breakthru in life there must first be a stretch of pain. NO PAIN NO GAIN & NO PAIN NO GROWTH!

Whatever it is that i learnt in SOT so far, I felt that it is not just about how knowlegable you are, how smart or educated you are? I felt is all about attitude of one self. Attitude of willingness to be taught and to receive. Beside learning from the pastors and the lecturers, my team mates are also a group of people that I have learnt and receive from them. Their life experiences they had and their walk with God and the revelation they received... we are always there to encourage each other. So glad for the team that I am in. TEAM 10, Yeah!!! (Aiming for the best united team this year 2006...hahaha) In fact going to SOT is not just about getting good grades but also to make a different and influence in others life as well. When you know that what you have shared had touched them and encourage them to grow, you will have the satisfaction and fulfillment. I always believe that sharing be it in joyful thing or problems at the end it must be something that others can pick up and learnt and be motivated to move on and strike for the better.

To those who has not been to SOT and desiring to go, start praying and planning for year 2007 in-take if you are able. Promise its going to be a life changing experience! =)

W0nderful Weekends

2006-08-27T23:26:00.000+08:00

CG was great. There was great expectancy for God to move this evening. I really wanted and needed a tremendous breakthru desperately! Its really these few days that i really felt i drew nearer to God again. I felt His hand touched mine, His presence melting every hardness in my heart, dissolving every hurt and pain. My heart literally cried out to God today. I am seizing every moment i have in that sh0rt time of w0rship t0day. It really was s0 perfect! I would never trade anything else f0r it!

And yeah s0 it was. another saturday gone. I nearly jumped out of bed as my mind was rehearsing my daily routine to w0rk. I thought it was a working day and i am late f0r work when i saw dawn breaking. A few seconds later, i fell back on my pillow comforting myself and breathing in heavily the air of my precious weekends! My, the air is s0 fresh! Its here finally after much anticipation!

But my plan to hug my bed longer was disturbed by other m0re impt itinerary. I sent my dad t0 work @ 8am s0 i can drive e car for our bbq session and t0 visit my grandma. The latter did not came to pass and dropped out of my agenda as my grandma was 0ut @ the salon. Well that spelt m0re sleep. When i am all ready t0 close my eyes, the phone rang! Sandy was the culprit! She needs me to pick up the ice box from her. And after those rushing, the box concluded in weiwen's hands! Well well and s0 i dr0ve at a turtle speed t0 changi beach with ah lian with me. We are abt an hour early.. that explains the record speed!

It was s0 funny.. we unloaded the bbq stuff from my cars. At that m0ment h0w i wished we could tranformed into some octopus. There are s0 many things t0 carry. N0thing is too difficult f0r the powerpuff girls. S0 we g0t our powers combined and we teleport-ed to the bbq pits! Did some quick PA and g0t the place ready. While waiting, there were s0 mani planes flying passed us. We had an awesome time guessing the airlines..

The much awaited day kicked off with 3 exciting rounds of rounders. We screamed and yelled and did some community services by feeding th0se famine m0squitoes. I think we were rather generous.. >_< *pIak*

SUnday -- *thumbs uP* had a really enjoyable day spending time with my members. Though u can count the number of ppl that came in one hand, the fellowship was equally perfect and quality! Laughed alot! Had a short dinner with lian @ LJS at hougang mall! She was sharing with me about spiritual warfare! How she encountered spirits of different kinds~ s0 cool! Bef0re u knew it, u must try casting out one and n0t just hear in awe and let e jaws droped to the ground!

T0: ShiYing~ thanks f0r sparing yr ears. really appreciate it! *hugs* And there's m0re w0rk t0 be d0ne! Jesus said: Greater w0rks we will d0! =)

T0 E99: I love you all t0 bits!

Counting d0wn to Missions: I cant believe its happening tom0!

Doing less.. Brilliantly!

2006-08-22T00:34:00.000+08:00

A full life is not necessarily about doing and having a lot of things.
It's about fully appreciating all we have right now.
It's about doing a few things really well.
It's not about wide, it's about deep.
Our sense of dissatisfaction comes from skimming life.
Even though we may be 2 miles wide we're only 2cms deep.
We have so many options and opportunities we feel we are missing out if we don't do it all.
However, we need to rid ourselves of that notion and content ourselves with less.
The relentless pursuit of 'more', leaves us unhappy with 'now'.
Do less brilliantly!

'As a young leader, my biggest mistake was allowing my time to be eaten up with things outside my core competencies. - Andy Stanley

Bef0re~

2006-08-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

There are always things to do before we do the thing we want to do.
Without doing the before thing, we'll be less than prepared to do whatever we are doing properly.
Before the day starts we need to pray.
Before we spend our money we need to bring the tithe to God.
Before we build a house we need to lay a foundation.
Before we give the performance we need to rehearse.
Before we see the client we need to do the research.
'Retrospective normalizing' is not the best way to live.
Do the first things, first!

The most Impt in Life!

2006-08-22T00:21:00.000+08:00

The most destructive habit -- Worry
The greatest Joy -- Giving
The greatest loss -- Loss of self-respect
The most satisfying work -- Helping others
The ugliest personality trait -- Selfishness
The most endangered species -- Dedicated leaders
Our greatest natural resource -- Our youth
The greatest "shot in the arm" -- Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome -- Fear
The most effective sleeping pill -- Peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease -- Excuses
The most powerful force in life -- Love
The most dangerous pariah -- A gossiper
The world's most incredible computer -- The brain
The worst thing to be without -- Hope
The deadliest weapon -- The tongue
The two most power-filled words -- "I Can"
The greatest asset -- Faith
The most worthless -- Self-pity
The most beautiful attire -- SMILE!
The most prized possession -- Integrity
The most powerful channel of communication -- Prayer
The most contagious -- Enthusiasm
The most important thing in life -- GOD

G00dbye Sunday!

2006-08-13T21:42:00.000+08:00

Cant imagine we are already in the midst of Aug!! FOP and church anniversary have already been in the books of history. Once again for FOP, it is usually the queueing up summing up more time for fellowship. Thank God for wonderful ppl in our cg that reali sacrificed and "stand in the gap" so that we can enjoy the preaching of the WOG and the whole session in comfort. The first day i reached like only 730pm due to OT. But thank God i still managed to squeeze my way in. CCC band was solid and so was Don Moen and his band. Don Moen is so charming f0r his age. He is s0 talented and he g0t such beautiful voice. Of coz n0t forgetting the little cute guy that complement Don Moen's worshipping session. I wondered if ppl were reali worshipping or were they gazing at e cute guy!! They juz cant start talking abt him. I heard thousands guessing his status, his profile, and i think some enthus ppl went as far as checking if he has ani website! Great fans har!

And nothing beats our church anniversary. It was s0 touching when we watched the video. It broadcasted abt our church's growing up path. It was so amazing and so touching. I can onli say: God is good!

And on National Day guess where i was. Neither was i at home nor at the national stadium. We were at simsville having our national day cg! One of a kind celebration. Shing and co encountered some challenging problem during the mtg. Thank God we g0t everything working in the end. We watched H0t Chick together and it was relaxing and funny. The last thing on e agenda that day was the bbq. We ate n ate. It was fun and enjoyable after all. The most memorable event of the day was, we watched fireworks on the roof top! It was so spectecular! I think we were too busy snapping those pics away than enjoying the beauty of the firew0rks. And.. it was romantic f0r some to0... haha!

Sis Jerb is finally back from her mission trip! We went to pick her up on sat! I am s0 glad to see her. E99 misses her when she is n0t ard. We just cant wait for her to come back and share with us abt preaching experience in china. Ya man we g0t a lot to hear and learn from.

Tomo its m0nday again.. G0ing back to work and its OT till late for me i guess! My work is piling up. I g0t no choice! Tues its PM, Wed its BS, thurs its K-boxing class and fri, conf @ expo! I need to clear as much work as possible b4 i g0 for my mission trip.

Dear all! Have a great week ahead!

Counting down to mission trip: Exactly 14 days!

Great is our God! Oei! Oei! Oei!

twinkle twinkle little star!

2006-08-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

i saw a shooting star!!!!!! =)

Shannon heard me made my wish!

And she laughed n0n-stop!

^~^

New Beginnings!

2006-08-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

August has started well for me so far. Have been 2 exciting days at work! Indeed nothing to expect reali just papers. On the first day, i reached my office half an hour early coz i g0t n0 idea h0w congested the road and the buses will be so it is safer to pack and head f0r work early. Well, for the first few hours, it was reading after reading. My boss in a very short time roughly gave me an idea on what our dept is dealing with, the systems how it work and all the abbreviations that are commonly used by my colleagues for effective working. It was overwhelming for me as i t0tally have n0 banking experience at all~ S0 i managed to survive the few hours reading and at the same time fighting the zzz monster. Finally, its time to get practical. I was given my first assignment. I nearly fainted. It was like a mountain! I have never d0ne s0 much paper w0rk in my life! I'll upload the pics another time. All i knew was i did my best, trying to avoid all the careless mistakes possible and most imptly rem EXCELLENCE! And so i handed in my w0rk, happily placed it 0n my boss's table. It seemed like it was just 5 mins ago when i just started work, its already 615pm w/o realising. My team leader was very kind. She said its my first day @ work s0 i shall be spared from OT. The best part was before i left, b0ss came to me and said my first assignment was well d0ne! whoohoo~

Told myself that aug is another new beginning so i went to cut my hair. I must l00k g00d when g0ing to work. The haircut was acceptable la. At the salon, saw the very lifestyle of a tai-tai! Imagine: She walked into the salon, sat down, took the maz and started making her requests to e hairdresser. She went on sharing with everyone ( u know she was talking loudly) that she went for some slimming operation where "OIL" was withdrawn from her tummy. The whole painful experience costs her 3k!!! The way she describes the process freaks me out. I cant imagine all the pain she has to g0 thru just to l00k nice. You are right there's more! SHe went on boasting abt her new hp which cost her abt nearly 1k! show off~ Goodness! And from head to toe she is branded! cant take it anim0re and finally she is off! some big car picked her up!Guess wat, she has g0t a typical tai-tai name too : Monica! haha! Girls, d0 u still wan to tai-tai?

Wonderful 6 months!!!

2006-08-01T00:13:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! i am glad i am back to get this blog going again. I saw the last date i blogged was in Feb. Oh my gosh, it have been 6 months le. Ok i guess so much has happened and there is so much to share right? But dun worry i will just summarise and n0t tell grandma stories!

1st of all, its wonderful to be back in e arms of E99. TO be under the leadership of sis JErb again! All i can say, E99, let us continue to gr0w and flourish in the house of G0d! and of coz to everyone in E362, i have never forgotten u all! Am glad u guys are still going strong in the Lord! LEts jia you for Jesus together!

And there is Emerge in June! I guess everyone will agree with me that its such an awesome conference. Dreams and visions impressed on our hearts, thousands of youths on fire for God, bringing the whole hall down with our usually loud praise and worship! M0st importantly, those special moments and encounters with G0d will never be erased from our mind. All of us have a great destiny in God! =)

Then its the fashion runway and the LAN games that just passed us by! Actually i am so amazed at how much we can do with all those trash bags and our old clothes. I was flooded with my group creative juices. Everyone just cant wait to see their ideas "Live" in action! The girls definitely had an awesome time flipping those magazines and colouring those faces. Whereas the guys are busy fighting wars vitrually. I have nil idea of wat is it all about. I remembered one cg outing, i sat with the brothers in my cg. Throughout the whole dinner, they were talking in CS and Dota language. Oh man, i reali felt i was from Venus.. >_<

And of coz n0t forgetting the little reunion with some of E362 members last night. It was reali crazy. It is as though we are back to those times where we will laugh hard at each other and joked about kelvin. We went shopping @ bugis after a light dinner at our cg fav hang out place.. pasta mania! ANd poor kelvin was so bored that he went to the bookstore t0 get some books. We joined him shortly after and naughty shiying was so evil, she shouted in the shop wat title did kel bought! Oh man! she is e ultimate! And then we went t0 take neoprint, It sounded like an out of fashion thing to do. Kel, shing and me were reluctant but seeing the rest so enthu abt it, we gladly surrendered our money. The best part was it t00k us like ages to get the thing printed and ppl were already closing for the day! And finally we rested our feet at MAc for a simple dessert and t0 distribute our art w0rk at the neoprint machine. So it was already half past ten when we unwillingly departed. M0st of them g0t school so we gonna watch the time. Well hopefully we catch up another time with more ppl j0ining us!

Finally its Aug the First! I will be starting my new job! I will be working in DBS bank @ chai chee as operations assistant. BAscially i will be attached to the credits dept doing all the paper work! I cant imagine i will be facing tonnes and mountains of papers each day! Its is just n9t me! Well g0nna give it a try. I pray God will increase my treashold for admin and i can conquer them! I can move the mountains! Yeah! Really thank God for this job, Its only 5 days week just that occasionally i need to do OT but of coz paid, And my remuneration is way beyond my expectations, S0 i am glad! I am starting work tomo. Dunno wat to expect except just papers. Believing for a great time!

Well thats all i guess at the m0ment! will be back soon with more exciting adventures!

Vision

2006-02-08T18:22:00.000+08:00

Vision is to leadership what oxygen is to lungs. Essential!
It's the difference between life and death for a leader.
Vision must be written down.
Don't just leave it in your imagination.
Write it down.
All the time.
Receiving a vision is important.
Writing it down is more important.
The magic of a vision is in it being written down.
What's your vision?
Write it down now.
Again and again.

2006-02-08T18:19:00.000+08:00

The key to growing anything is to pay it positive attention.

'Pay' The price is time. Make time for the highest priorities

'Positive' Give attention to the positives. Don't be hijacked by the negatives which can so easily claim our attention.

'Attention' Give undistracted attention to person. Turn off the TV, the cell phone, put down your pen, the book and look them in the eye. Listen, hear what they're saying. Connect.

The Incredibles!!!

2006-01-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

In this cell, i saw how everyone grew.

shi ying, my proudest member. from just a nominal christian to where she is now, a helper in one of the fastest growing cg in church.. i am soooo happy for her! shing jia you!
caijun.. slowly growing up, i know i have her fullest support. she is always quietly there although she dun show it. the next cgl.. dun disappoint me. =)
kelvin, my most matured member. i went thru SOT with him last yr. i willl never forget how i suan and discipled him. i saw him move on too. tremendously shd i say. his initiative is awesome. he definitely knows wat i want and wat i am looking for. i can trust him with the errands of the cell group. I know he sacrificed alot for God and for E362.. though not mentioned i appreciate him alot!
Swee. my dearest sweetest member. so mischevious. late for bs and often like to talk back. lateness is probably her profession. hey but thats the old swee min i know. now she is different. she has changed. to me, she is the most evangelistic i ever know in E362. i know now she is willing to lay down her life for God, more on fire. open to discipleship, changing herself for Jesus, thats my swee! =)
Xiao en.. she too. one of e sweetest girl in the cg. together w swee. always pickering.. haha thats their show, though its so noisy at times but its just so them. she is also so teachable now, i know she is doing her best in cg , usher and in sch. en, jia you! i missed giving u and swee bible study!
Tim.. prob one of the talented member tat i have. he is the cg asset. i have felt his heart's desire to rise up, to serve more.. i heard that cry. for that dream and desire, i believed he has put in tremendous and unseen effort. i guess he has died to himself many times to be where he is now. many times i felt so strong a burden f0r him, he might not know. Its ok, i am trying my best, i want to bring out the best in him! this year i pray he is gonna prove it!
Chun.. this boy wat can i say. the WOG says do not despise yr youth.. haha although young in age, there is so much he say do.. can i say as much as his physical size? keke! chun.. i know he often has volunteered himself to incovenience in order to get things done! wow! and also he also has brough many frens to church too.. his never dying spirit, his availability for the cg.. what can i say but to love him more.
Mer.. aiya this little guy, so quiet and yet so funny. you never know wat to expect from him. he brings laughters to the cg too if you dun know. he has become more responsible and slowly moving out of his quietness too. he is going to join strikeforce! a very loveable guy!
Hui shan.. doing her degree overseas but still in love with Jesus each day. i know she is responsible too. i can depend on her for a good cell group atmosphere. i am going to miss her yes and amen when she goes back to study.
Nicole.. this girl, one of the most hardworking one. so involved in so0o0o many CCA.. i also lost count already. but ever since she moved into this cg, i saw her changed. she is not longer the "bo chap" but she is doing her best to value add t0 the cg! hey girl, rem to rest!Han Zong... a funny guy too. he too has morphed into a different person compared the first time he came. Last week in cg prayer mtg , he was the first to burst out in prayers. so proud of him! he is going for chorus board and i hope this year he will breakthru in his church life! zong, jia you!
Stella.. the quiet princess.. cai said she is the fair lady of E362.. i saw another side of her.. was stunned. i prayed she will get the same passion back again.. i will be waiting..
Junyi.. all i know outside his specs world.. it is his PS2! he too has brought alot of frens to church considering his short period in church. his passion for st john who dunno.. he is developing muscles..physical and spiritual
Nicholas.. this boy arh.. jia you in your studies!
Edison...all the best in everything you do! you are in our prayers!
Paul...somewhere out there...
Edmund.. We miss you!

The wonderful E362...
I love y0u all..

~cLeaNing uP~

2006-01-28T09:44:00.000+08:00

"quick clean the house!!" thats what i have been hearing from my mum for the last few days. why ne? if you still dun know, let me tell you, its chinese new year le if you still haven realise! oh yes, this is the only time i guess probably i will start clearing e 'store room' which i sleep in everyday. >_<
climb up and down, in and out... finally i got a new room! keke! feel more refreshed and hmm nice feeling! ^_^ i am sure you all know wat i am talking about.. its the same for many of us isnt it?
CNY arrived and rushed its way thru, shd be very happy.. but i dun feel so. Dad and brother overseas in shanghai so are most of my relatives. Left mum, lin, me and xiao hei at home.. no where to go.. guess xiao hei will be happy with us at home to celebrate his yr with him! maybe at least good news. can avoid those ppl i dun wana see, dun have to ans irritating questions. hmm!
have arranged a few meet up with some frens. with olivia, jeanie and xiaowei. then my sec sch pals. well awaiting some fun i guess. ok, this new year is gonna be different for me. going to work! work! haha..nothing to do at home, might as well!
ok la, update again. gonna get back to work! wish everyone a prosperous new year. collect lots of ang bow! keke! ^_*

getting red

2006-01-23T17:47:00.000+08:00

It says :

Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive,
not how you listen but how you understand,
not what you see but how you feel,
and not how you let go but how you hold on

Sometimes the one you love turns out to be the one whu hurts you the most, and sometimes the friend who takes you into his arms and cries when you cry turns out to be the love you never knew you wanted

tHinKing...

2006-01-21T22:14:00.000+08:00

.... where should i start? It has reali been long that i start pouring out my thoughts again...
thousands and millions times i wanted to write out those feelings that i have kept inside of me.. but the thought of writin was simply overwhelmed and soon faded by tiredness and tears. Some how i cant find words to replace my emotions animore.. like wat i used to. It seems the most difficult thing to do now! Someone please help me! Or maybe i just simply cant find any words to replace the confused me.. all that i am feeling and experiencing... who can understand me?
Well, lets do a simple sum up for 2005.
All i can say when doing the year review, i dun really rem alot of things. I only know God is good and He still is!
i think i had a splendid year! My heart's desire, my dream came to pass.. i became a CGL! tats my calling! I cant believe it! I am so happy that i went speechless when bro ed announced it! My pals went crazy with me too when i told them abt it. ^_^ well that dream came with a high price i got to pay, not mentioning the sacrifices, its nothing really.. Its just the beginning! =) I love the ppl God placed in E362. Every single one of them! I am loving them more each day..E362 you are the best!
Of course the highlight of the year was i went bible school!! SOT!! Whoohoo! just the name itself makes me whoa! I still rem we started sch on 14th Feb. Nice day isnt it>?? We had so much fun getting to know our new found frens from overseas. just a simple conversion with them reali felt i know the world! You bet they are good! dun play play!Then its the battle every tues to fri morning with the zzzz monster. Guess who wins? well. thats for u to find out! The lessons and experiences, every min and sec that i spent in SOT, let me tell u, its so indefinitely precious! I would not trade them for anything else! Of course its not just goin to sch, and beating the clock to scan your card, but its the encounters with God that transformed my life! And guess wat before you know it, its 18th Dec! Its graduation!
Putting on the gowns, adjusting our mortar boards, making sure we look the best, wearing the sweetest smile ever, one by one, proudly and steadily, we were on the stage! We shook Dr Jeff and Pst Kong's hands. Received our cert and we are back in our seat again! At the count of 3 when Pst Kong presented the 2005 class to the whole congregation, it was raining mortar boards in Expo Hall 8! not forgetting there were lighting (camera flashes) and thunder (thunderous applause and cheers) too! Did u miss it? Wow! And.. i heard a few *0Uch* here and there in the background.. keke..I am one of the culprit! Then its the usual photograph sessions and that spell the end of my sch life!
And then now no sch, i reali missed all the late nights rushing assignments, the after school fellowship, the long traveling yet enjoyable trip to sch.. all that can only be rem now. I will never forget how in SOT i grew closer to God..
Life still move on.. soon its christmas and the its the new year..2006! Nothing exciting and much to share about. Dunno why. Normally it should be an excellent chance of sharing joy w others but on this pg of my life i've got a blank page...
2006 unknowingly crept in.. bid 2005 off silently..the new year... as the word suggest "NEW", is everything gonna be new? Maybe...
Its time to set visions and resolutions again. What do i want to see myself achieving this year? It seems a depressing year for me.. i didnt start it well.. it will be a long story if i wrote everything down. Pst Kong preached about moving on to a new level this year.. is it going to happen to me? yes or no?
2006 means looking for new directions for me..am i going to continue with my degree or shd i look for a job? .. or better still get married and sit at home and shake leg! haha.. Definitely not for me.. its so boring!! Well so i have been mugging myself at work! All i can see now is W>O>R>K!!! nothing else.. such a boring me isnt it? Right now, i am really lost... i guess thats why i am drowning myself by working..I cant imagine myself working 66hours last week! I am emotionally, physically and mentally challenged and drained. there seems to be alot of things waiting for me to take actions and certain things have progressed... from bad to worse.. and no response from ting yet..
I have been struggling with reali alot of issues in my life. I guess God is doing HIs work in my life.
Internet not functioning for one month already.. was losing out reali alot on my frens blogs and msn.. finally its back again! yipee! had a great time reading and catching up with them. so much has happened... good and bad!
still got so much to write... but i am tired le.. catch up soon!
Like wat minghui said.. its so therapeutic.. i just love writin..

tired ting~

EneRgIIIzZZZzzEd!!!

2005-12-22T01:16:00.000+08:00

Energy comes from doing the will of God - not from resting from work, but from doing the work we're meant to do.

When we do what we're gifted to do we get energized.

When we do what we're not gifted to do or are called to do, we lose energy.

When we engage our whole heart, mind and body, we get energized.

When we're occupied doing something our heart and mind are not interested in, we get fatigued.

We're not meant to do more than we're meant to do.

At the end of our life we should be able to say, we ran our race, fought our fight and completed our course.

I am just reminded that we are like batteries. We can come in different brands, sizes and types but we still serve one purpose.. that is to make things work! Its just like this potential is put in us. We are to fulfill what God has meant for it to happen. We give energy to make things happen! If we begin to find the right thing to give energy, not much energy needs to be exerted to complete what was intented and thus it runs longer. Just like energizer batteries, "Never say Die!" Even if you reached a place of low battery, you get youself recharged quick enough to move on!
But if you are placed in an enviroment where you are expected to give out energy GREATER and larger the capacity than what you can cope, in no time, we see you no more. Fatigue came and willingness and joy is not wat that was radiated but tiredness and bad attitudes.
When you are energized, passion and unrelenting support you will give!
To you, all things can be done, all things possible! More can be done, more can be achieved!

In simple words, begin to enjoy every moment that you can to serve GOd!
When you are in His will, you get re-energized pretty soon in the Holy Spirit!

I am energized today, are you?

BOLD! BOLDER!! BOLDEST?!!!

2005-10-20T01:18:00.000+08:00

A bold colour stands out from the rest.

We make the font bold to emphasise the point.

Life makes way for the bold person.

Fortune favours the bold, the brave, the courageous.

A small vision fails to motivate.

The vision that takes your breath away, that'll capture attention.

Boldness is not bold unless we laugh on the edge of our nervous boundaries.

Bold is Winston Churchill standing on the rooftops of London yelling defiance to Hitler whilst the bombs rain down on the city around him.

Be bold, be strong, for the Lord your God is with you! (Josh 1:9)

'What would you do if you were ten times bolder? Go out and do it. When and what has it cost you in life not to be bold?'

Talking t0 G0d

2005-10-19T01:31:00.000+08:00

Talking to God with a Deck of Cards

A young soldier was alone in his bunkhouse one Sunday morning over in
Afghanistan. It was quiet that day, the guns and the mortars, and land mines
for some reason hadn't made a noise.

He knew it was Sunday, the holiest day of the week. As he sat there, he got
out an old deck of cards and laid them out across his bunk.

Just then an army sergeant came in and said, "Why aren't you with the rest
of the platoon?"

The soldier replied, "I thought I would stay behind and spend some time with
the Lord."

The sergeant said, "Looks like you're going to play cards."

The soldier said, "No sir, you see, since we are not allowed to have Bibles
or other spiritual books in this country, I've decided to talk to the Lord
by studying this deck of cards."

The sergeant asked in disbelief, "How will you do that?"

"You see the Ace, sergeant, it reminds that there is only one God.

The Two represents the two parts of the Bible, Old and New Testaments.

The Three represents the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost.

The Four stands for the Four Gospels: Matthew, Mark, Luke and John.

The Five is for the five virgins, there were ten, but only five of them were
glorified.

The Six is for the six days it took God to create the Heavens and Earth.

The Seven is for the day God rested after working the six days.

The Eight is for the family of Noah, his wife, their three sons and their
wives. God saved these eight people from the flood that destroyed the earth
for the first time.

The Nine is for the lepers that Jesus cleansed of leprosy. He cleansed ten,
but nine never thanked Him.

The Ten represents the Ten Commandments that God handed down to Moses on
tablets made of stone.

The Jack is a reminder of Satan. One of God's first angels, but he got
kicked out of heaven for his sly and wicked ways and is now the joker of
eternal lake of fire.

The Queen stands for the bride of Christ, which is called His church, or
body of believers that wait for his return.

The King stands for Jesus, for he is the King of all kings.

When I count the dots on all the cards, I come up with 365 total, one for
every day of the year [???].

There are a total of 52 cards in a deck; each is a week, 52 weeks in a year.

The four suits represent the four seasons: spring, summer, fall and winter.

Each suit has thirteen cards; there are exactly thirteen weeks in a quarter.

So when I want to talk to God and thank Him, I just pull out this old deck
of cards and they remind me of all that I have to be thankful for."

The sergeant just stood there and after a minute, with tears in his eyes and
pain in his heart, he said, "Soldier, can I borrow that deck of cards?"

"If My people, which are called by My Name, shall humble themselves, and
pray, and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear
from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land." II
Chronicles 7:14

Will you send this on so that we can have a multitude of our people
humbling themselves to pray, seeking God's face, turning from selfish
behavior?

>>> EmPtIed n FillEd <<<

2005-10-19T01:28:00.000+08:00

Guess i have been lazy.. not blogging. No updates.. alot of catching up to do!
During my disappearance, i did not went for some holidays or anything but went for a short mental vacation. I needed that! My poor little brain has overworked! hee!
Yes! So here i am ready to share and pen down the little vacation that i had.
As i have decided to fight this battle and run this race again, i have come to realise many things in my life that it can be changed, whereas there are also other things in my life that cannot be changed or altered!
What can be changed.. its like what Pst Carl said.. everything we see.. is subject to change. So my problems, they are just companions to spice up my life. Without them, i will never know what kind of person and character i am. Without them, i will never seek for improvments. Most importantly, without them, i will not be closer to God! Whatever it is, they are just "passer-bys" in my life. When i move on, i will never see them again. I will just meet more of them and different ones!
What cannot be changed.. It will be my love for God, for people, for my CG, E362, my calling as a CGL! My desire to impact lives thru the preaching of the Word and BS. That means no matter what happens, my decisions for these area of my life will remain as it is. No compromising, no waivering, not quitting, nothing! And if it should change, then it can onli be changed for the better! My love can only grow stronger and not colder! Yeah! =)
So God has stil been good! He will never left me hanging!
I still rem one service when Pst Tan preached about renewing our life... GOd showed me a bottle. I reali seriously do not understand what is it all about. Tried very hard to ask God to show me but He still din say anithing.
Well, the answer was revealed in the following week. It was a hard way to achieve this answer. God wanted it a practical lesson for me!
And yes He did! I went through a terrible week wanting to give up on everything. Then God reminded me of that bottle He showed me on sun. I just kept seeing water flowing out it but i simply do not understand a single thing. Then... here it comes.. He said, Ting, e bottle represents your life. what I am emptying right now is all yr bad attitudes, mindsets, yr old life, yr old self, all yr cannot-s, discouragements and disappointments. What i am experiencing right now is because HE has removed that cork that has suppressed all these that resulted in a polluted me. Its all flowing out now! God is shaking real hard! Not one drop of water was left. The bottle is totally emptied! In other words, God wants me to surrender all. He wants to be in control! He does not want a polluted and stinky bottle!
And so HE took actions. He wanted a NEW bottle, a NEW me! Well guess what He did? Did u guess it correctly? Yes! He refilled the bottle! HE refilled me.. not with anything but with the Holy Spirit, newer passion, newer dreams and visions, greater love for Him and His ppl! That has no doubt landed me in a newer position to serve Him, to love Him and to lay down everything of me.. just for Him! Isnt it great! He has done a great work in my life! That decision has really made me realised how impt my calling is in my life. There's no turning back now, only moving on!
And i got some other revelations too. Too much for today. Will write again! Now i need to go recharge le. Battery running low!

A brand new bottle!
No mixtures!

It's not the time to Quit...

2005-10-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

Hi,

just wana shared this story with you guys which impacted me alot. If anyone of you have ever thought of quitting...think it again...

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"I Would not Quit" He Said

One day I decided to quit... I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life. I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me... "Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

He said. "In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.

In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. "I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...

But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.

" He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots"

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.

"The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet, they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high!"

"How high should I rise?" I asked. "How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return. "As high as it can?"

I questioned. "Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and bring back this story.

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

No matter how difficult your situation is, just look upon to God.
Everything is subject to change =)

I aM bAck!!!

2005-10-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

A stronger lion! With a bolder, mighter, better, stronger will power! =)
I am not going to be defeated again! I am going all out for Jesus!
i am going to run the race and win the prize!
It's all worth it!

FiGht!!!

2005-10-03T03:42:00.000+08:00

On Sunday night, before going to sleep, I did my QT, praising and worshipping God, listening to the prophetic message from past Ulf and eventually I fell asleep.

My first dream!
In the dream, I found myself in a place; it was a very holy place. There were many people together with me. We were all receiving BS from a ‘teacher’. This ‘teacher’ was special, He was very anointed and He was also very Holy. It was like even just staying in that place, there was so much reverence. So He began to teach. I was just beside this ‘teacher’. But something is really special about this ‘teacher’. Everybody seemed to be busy doing their things listening to Him but yet no one was really focusing on Him. But in my heart, I was very attracted by Him. I love this ‘teacher’ a lot. Suddenly in my heart, I ask “God is that you?” then all of a sudden, that ‘Teacher’ smile at me and say, “Amber, follow me.” Is that Jesus? I could feel my heart pounding very fast, yar I think it is Him! This ‘teacher’ that was present is my very reason for my existence here on earth. So I follow Him to a place. The presence of God was very strong in the room. The atmosphere was holy and full of love! In the room, He sat down and I sat down opposite Him. I was like getting ready for a bible study. Jesus is personally giving me BS! In front of me was a bible, and He told me to turn to Zechariah. I looked at the bible, it was in Chinese. Not wanting to you know malu myself, I try to search for it but I have really no idea where Zechariah is in Chinese. Then He smiled to me and said it is time for me to know then. Of course there was no condemnation at that point of time, but it was like God speaking to me in my heart to start reading a Chinese bible. Then all of a sudden, the peace in the room was disturbed by a few people. They approached that ‘Teacher’ and say that it is time to teach them now. “Teacher” told them that it was not their time but they insisted for the teacher to left with them. So the “teacher” went with them. I could sense that although that teacher went with them, He was not happy. They were hungry for what He can give but they don’t love Him. They want to have God’s blessing but not God! So left alone in that place, I start to reflect on the things that have happened. And then I woke up and found myself back in my room.

The scene of the dreams was so vivid in my mind, it was like a reality. I begin to get up quick and pray to God for full interpretation of the dream. What was He trying to tell me? Then its like suddenly, I am back to the dreams again, and every scene was replayed once again. God has taken me to see the spiritual realm.

The first revelation: There were a lot of people but yet no one recognize that God was there. They were so busy with their own stuffs. God reminds me never to be like them. I must be quick to recognize His presence.

The 2nd revelation: God ask me to follow Him
It is only when you can recognize Him, then He can ask you to follow Him!

The 3rd revelation: In the room
That room was my secret place in the spiritual realm. It was the most beautiful room that I ever seen but yet it was a very familiar place. The room was beautiful not because there were gold in the room or the room was very big, but because it was filled with God’s presence. God has come and visit me in that secret place.

The 4th revelation: God personally teaching me Bible study.
In my secret place, God will come and teach me whatever I need to know. He gave me personal revelations Himself. That means everytime when I read the bible, naturally I am on earth but my spirit is deported to the secret place where I can sit there and have a personal BS with God!

The 5th revelation: Chinese bible
Hmm is God really speaking to me about China? Before the dreams, I already have a desire to go china. It was like a double confirmation!

The 6th revelation: Do not be hungry and anxious for the wrong things.
There were a group of people that disrupt the meeting. God is trying to tell me that there are people who are anxious for many things, but it is not time for them yet. And I must not be like them. They were only hungry for God spiritual gifts, but they do not love God. God remind me never to make mistakes like them. If I want him to come and meet me at the secret place, then I must love Him for who He is! And I really do! I love God, I love Holy Spirit, I love Jesus! Those people that force God, they look really ugly in the spiritual realm. Not really a monster but there was nothing beautiful about those people.

The 7th revelation: God answers prayer
I remember as God reveals each revelation to me, I really teared. I was crying like a baby. I have been asking a dream from God for very long time. The first time I have a desire to have God’s dream was when pastor kong shared about how he dreamt of a spiritual attack where there were serpents when we first wanted to cross over to China. That was like so long ago, 2yrs back? I remember ever since then I have been asking God for a dream. But yet He never gives me one. Everytime when I read the verse in Acts 2: Your young men shall dream dreams…, I will tell God I want to have a dream too! Finally God answers my prayer! I have a dream from Him. It was a divine encounter that I will never forget. If I have to trade all I have now just to be with God so up close and personal, I will say YES! This encounter with God had really changed me.

Now every second of my life, I can’t wait to go back into the secret place. Just like now, as I am typing this letter on earth, I know my spirit is back into the secret place (spiritual realm). My spirit is also typing a letter to God. What is true in the natural is true in the spiritual. I have seen my personal secret place once, even if God never bring me back to see that place again, I know that place belongs to me and God. It is a place where He gives me vision, a place where I worship Him, a place where I go to when I am tired, a place where I have personal BS with Him…etc. Everyday, I want to go to that place!

After this whole revelation, I remembered I cry very long, about an hour or so. God presence was so strong in the room. I wasn’t crying but wailing like a child. God asked me if I am willing to give my life to Him, I say Yes without any hesitant. I begin to sing Jesus I give you my heart! Hmm I remember there was once, when pastor kong talked about God will come and ask you what do you want from Him and for. E.g. Solomon asked for wisdom. God did ask me this question before and I gave him a reply too. I told God, “I never want your presence to depart from me. I want to be like Abraham and Moses. I want to be your friend on earth. I want to know you personally and have an encounter with you everyday.” That was my wish! I just want to be with God forever. Even if one day God take all my ministry away, Its ok, it is not what I want. I want to be like Enoch where he walked with God and God took him away! 

hEateD uP!

2005-09-28T02:16:00.000+08:00

Well well
got lots of stuff flooding my thoughts.. haven piece them into words yet.. not much to say..
All i can say now God is good!
It seems like God is putting me to the fire again.. this time double the times the oven is heated up.. *0uCh*
Tues late night received that surprised call, was kinda of expecting it but didnt know it was so soon. Felt happy for her! At the same time, also hmm.. ya! Jia you k girl!
The most devasting thing gonna happen... and it did happened again! Overwhelmed with sadness, i chose to dwell in my world. Facing my helplessness, i decided to embrace the negative, refusing to face up to reality. No words could explained that kind of disappointment, a hurt.. so deep within.. I wanted so much to hang on but at the same time wanted to give up as well. It was emotionally draining..
But He will never left me alone.. He was there always.. so close, so real.
I am comforted in His presence and He assured me. Though that hurt was deadly enough to seize my little brain.. Nothing reali compares to being with Jesus. All that were unwanted were pushed behind by His love. At the same time, i realised heaps of things. Friendship can be so valuable.. so indefinitely important... But it can never work out without simply having trust.. Thats the most important foundation i think.
Lian, Amber and Hui thanks for everything!

0vErc0mInG!!

SAD! >_<

2005-09-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

Petrol for you?

2005-09-19T11:30:00.000+08:00

God is good!
He has been giving me revelation after revelation..heeha! =)
Esp in school, many times He spoke to me. I remembered once last week.. I was sitting down exerting every strength from within trying to pay attention to what was being delivered by the enthusiastic lecturer. I wanted to learn smtg new and fresh, thoughts like these flooded my mind. Ok so, i looked at the lecturer through my glasses, waiting in anticipation. Then.. Holy Spirit reminded me.. Whats a revelation. Hmm, strange isnt it? I was like ok.. revelation arh! Someone without a revelation will be like one who needs to wear glasses and did not wear. Their vision will always be blurred, they cannot make out where they are going. Thats why always lost their way and bump into walls. But a person with revelation will be someone with their specs on! Now, the vision is clear, the direction is clear! So owning a revelation is like Jesus showing you the way so obvious, so direct, it can never go wrong! I am wearing my specs of revelation each day, knowing in my heart, Jesus will show me His ways! Yeah!
God impressed upon my heart again about loving Him more during one worship session last week too! Honestly, i was distracted in my mind. Simply too preoccuied with things happening around me. Just couldnt focus, only my mouth and body were worshipping.. Then i told GOd thats not what i want. We were singing the song Fall.. Then we sang in chinese.. Towards the end of the song, worship was already ending, i made a prayer to Jesus telling Him, alright for the last few mins i dun care whats going to appear and take over my mind but right now i just wanna worship with my all! Ok, so i sang with all my heart the last line, in chinese.. qiu ni chong man wo... i meant every word! Then God gave me a vision! Hmm! He said i am just like a car. Everyday going places, doing this and that, travelling around, so preoccupied with so many thing. At the end of the day, when petrol runs low, its time to go back to the gas station and pumped up with petrol again so i can continue with my journey. Holy spirit reminded me, the car can only runs on petrol and not other elements. Not water, not soft drinks.. so definitely there is no substitute for the petrol. So, petrol to me now is like the Holy Spirit in my life, everyday when i feel tired, drained at the end of the day, i must rem to go back to my Petrol Station and get myself pump up full tank with the spirit of God! Thats my source! Nothing in my life can replace the Holy Spirit in my life.. no matter how much i sleep, how i look to other sources for strength and assurance, I will never get the most appropriate and satisfied solution.. thats why Holy Spirit has made me realise He is the petrol of my life!

PumPing uP!
Vro0o000ooommm!

M0re Mo0ncAkEs??

2005-09-19T02:25:00.000+08:00

I love this week!
Yeah! So happening! Sis Jerb, lian and my cg had a combined cg mtg on sat at braddell to celebrate mooncake festival! I tell you ppl, we never knew the mtg would turn out to be tremendously anointed one with God's presence. I am certainly sure they are so soaked in the presence that you wanna more of it! Ya of couse cannot do without games. Fellowship was at super high note when the members engaged all their creativity to think of all the possible ways on the history of mooncake! The best part; they gonna act it out! Whoohoo without saying, all the groups were super hilarious and innovative. They used their talents and all the possible props that they can find and put up a great drama showcases of the festival! My! They are the Zoe Tays and the Gurmit Singhs in ET zone! haha! We all had fun laughing at each other! The whole fellowship was really brightened and lifted up with all the endless laughters and the warmth radiating from each individuals.
This mtg really impacted my life somehow. I saw how God can use us, how He took control of the whole mtg and turned the situation around for us! Jesus you are the best! All my members told me the mtg were superb! The best thing that happened to me, not knowing how, i actually lead praise in tune! I am not afraid you will laugh at me but its so unbelieveable that i actually cant believe my ears too! I enjoyed every minute of it! Worship was good too! Of coz the preaching of the Word could not be missed with sis Jerb anointed teaching. All of us were super blessed and i definitely was in awe at the way sis Jerb preached and the way she shared! Powerful! I am so captivated ! Sis Jerb, you are the best! Ou xiang! =)
Not forgetting, my new friend, Jia Sheng! He super cool and cute. He very solid too. Attended svc and cg though got exam on Mon. He was impressed and convicted by the WOG! Most importantly, gave his life to Jesus today! Hallelujah! And guess wat, this new friend of mine lives in the same block as chun kiat, which is also the place of my cg mtg! haha! He onli needs to take the lift up to the tenth floor to attend cg mtg every week since he lives on the 6th floor! Amazng isnt it! He is so eager about cg that he already called Shing and questioned her why didnt she tell him what to bring for cg! Haha! God i want more friends like that! =)
I realised I am deeper in love now.. with my CG.. E362, I love u all! Of coz.. Jesus too!

To my best friend: Pop! Fireworks! *clAps* So happy for you! Finally, yr loooong awaited dream is coming to pass very soon! =) Jia you orh!

Y0u aRe mY aLL!

rIcH in G0d!

2005-09-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

Tiring week..
Nevertheless.. God is still good! The most memorable of the week..E362 CG mtg! Yeah! Was super troubled for the first half of the day.. with so many things occupying my mind.. no guitarist blah.. aniway shan talk abt it ani more. Yup so i was super desperate for a guitarist, with no1 available i guess i dun have a choice.. i decided to play for myself. Felt that prompting by the Holy Spirit that i shd play too... maybe thats why i cant find a guitarist..haha! =) Ok with mountain moving faith ^_^, i played. Praise, i think was better.. finally after a few weeks, though it was funny! ha ppl thanks har! Worship was the much anticipated part. Initially it seems like a normal worship session for all, but as we continued on.. pressing in into the presence of God.. GOd presence came.. so real, so tangible. My members they cried, with tears in their eyes and a hungry heart, they cried and reached out to God.. The atmosphere was amazing.. no words can describe. Dun feel like ending the worship but CG got to go on. I had a good time preaching as well! Being rich! After cg, my members told me.. they had encountered God, experienced Him in a whole new total manner! whoa i am blown off! I cant wait to hear from them!
T0day lian shared with me smtg..
She said a leader is one who goes, knows and shows the way. Ya its about directing and leading. But then God showed her.. Jesus is the WAY, the truth and the life..so putting it to what she knows..
it became..
A leader is one that goes with Jesus, knows Jesus and shows Jesus!
Powerful isnt it?

Y0u aRe all tHat i wAnt~

ReVivEd aNd ReNeWeD!

2005-09-08T02:01:00.000+08:00

Whoooosh!
Weeks after weeks just passed like that! So flying fast man! Already tried graduation gown and the SOT ring. I think before i know it, i am going to miss school le. I definitely will...
God has been so real in my life. Always there besides me! Always assuring and talking to me! Got a few revelations here and there.
During the first fruit weekend, Pst Ulf came and he laid hands on all CGLs for all services. Felt priviledged and reali needed that touch from God! Responded for 3 altar calls as i onli went for 3 services but its good enough le! The one that caused a deep impact in my mind was reali my own service, S5! Uptill now, i still remember vividly what God impressed upon my heart! As i am all geared to get prayed for, i felt God tangible presence so real and so near to me. I have yet to experience that for some donkey years. Can you imagine the amount of tears that was flowing down my face? Hmm ya! So i waited, Pst Ulf came, laid hands on me.. Bang! God's presence and anointing hitted me real hard.. Then the word came.. God said REVIVIAL! My immediate reaction was what! I dun understand and i do not know how.. I reali got zero idea. Then, gradually God reminded me that its time that i start reviving my own spiritual life, my love for Him. He also wants me to go and revived my members' life as well. They have been feeling lost, out of touch and losing focus. God wants me to bring them back to HIs presence again! This time, on fire more, being more fervent! And of coz reviving my cg unity spirit and also evangelism! He said He will help me! I smiled, He smiled too! I know i can! Then i think harder, everytime when Pst Ulf comes, he always bring revival in different areas and pushing us up to a new level. Now after he laid hands on us, I believe in the impartation! I can have that revivial anointing too! E362 will experience it! Yeah! Jin Lian got the same experience as me, isnt that cool! =)
Then the following week during svc, Pst Kong laid hands on us too! God without fail turned up again right beside me, whispering into my ears, this time, HE said RENEW! Jesus reminded me many times i have fallen bcoz of tiredness and my own weakness, but now God say He will renew my life. I am going to come out strong! A different Su Ting i will be. Now i am transforming, He is changing me, renewing my life as He begins to show me my priorities in life. I thought i knew them but i was wrong. He knows better than i know myself! He has been challenging me to love Him more n more! Unmeasurable, increasing more! Its this love that willl keep me going too! E362, you will experience it too! I promised!
Tuesday i had a prayer mtg with my CG. Finally, a second one after so many months. Was really looking forward with much anticipation and excitment. This prayer mtg was the first for many many of my young members. Not knowing what to expect, they came! For the first time, i am praying with this whole bunch of young members, having no grasp whats going to take place next. I dun have my helpers ard.. Was experiencing waves after waves of anxiety as i also dun know what is going to happen in this mtg too.. Well i know i got the most impt Helper, thats enough! The moment i started my mtg, He was there. Had a wonderful time worshipping and praying! All of them took a step of faith and prayed! I am so proud of them! Felt elated! So happy that i cant stop smiling! E362, I loveee you! Seeing them stepping out really reminded myself how far i have came in my walk with GOd, how i used to be like them. Jesus.. its all worth it! Revival and Renewal on the way!
Of course, before the mtg started, i asked GOd for a word for the CG. God showed me Psalm 40:1. Its about worshipping Him in the midst of all your tiredness. With reference to ISa 40:30-31 also, Holy Spirit showed me, as youths, we are no exception , we will feel tired too! But the crucial part.. When we feel tired, Ps 40:1 says "I WAITED PATIENTLY for the Lord; And He inclined to me, and heard my cry." Then suddenly, it was brought to my mind what does it means to wait patiently. Its like we having an appointment with a friend. Our friend did not turn up after very long.. Usually the impatient us will pick up our phones and start calling our friends and asked them where they are. And we will keep on calling until we our friends appear before us. Same way for worshipping God, everytime when it comes to worshipping, its a date or an appointment with Jesus.. Like wat we will do in the natural, Jesus is not going to come immediately. After a while, when we do not sense Him, dun give up! Keep on calling, He will hear our cry and He will come eventually! That will be the best appointment ever! And When He comes, Isa 40:31 says our strength will be renewed! Now yes we have strength, but not our strength animore, but its God supernatural strength. Thats why we can do ALL things thru Christ who STRENGTHENS us! As i began to share this with my CG, i believe they have received it in their spirit.. this week onwards they will experience God's supernatural strength! A supernatural week awaits them! =)
To my new found best friend: Today i wanted to tell you desperately how much you meant to me.. I handed you my mirror. That mirror is not my best friend neither is myself. But in fact i wanted you to look into that little answering revealing mirror of mine, you will instantly understand who is the person i was referring to. Is it too hard? You get it now? Love ya! =)

In Love Always~

I Love Jesus!

2005-09-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

I l0ve Y0u JeSus dEeP d0wn In mY hEart

I l0ve Y0u JeSus dEeP d0wn In mY hEaRt

tAlk aBoUt dEeP dEep d0Wn d0wn

dEeP d0wN In mY hEaRt

tAlk aBoUt dEeP dEep d0Wn d0wn

dEeP d0wN In mY hEaRt

Heart Priority

2005-09-03T23:36:00.000+08:00

You'll love what you love.

Whatever you give your heart to is what you'll gain pleasure from.

Whatever the heart loves it wants more of.

The heart is not satisfied with what it loves.

Thus we need to ensure that what we love is the highest.

If we love small valueless things, that's what we will get our kicks from.

This is why we must choose what we love, high, great things.

What we love must be the highest priorities of life.

'Love the Lord your God with all your heart....,' (Mark 12:30)

~ 0n the m0vE! ~

2005-09-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

endless stretch of sandy beaches is what i saw on mon. Under that scorching sun, walked with Wanjun for some silly distances till we finally found a favourable spot to rest our feet for the day and to get ourselves "burning" in the sun! whoohoo! Went sentosa on mon morning after a long night work on sunday. We simply cant resist the temptation of going to the beach and relax. hmm.. yeah the sea breeze, the splashing waves, the soft sandy beaches, the ever burning sun.. hmmm did u smell holidays coming?
Now i am burning hot after an hour nap under the sun. I was burnt to the skin! man! pain! *scratch* haha aniway i enjoyed myself. morphed into an red indian for a few days! keke!
Yeah so happy! Finally found a job! thanks to my Jesus and my darling friend! Someh0w this job spells the start of my new journey again! well at least it got me started. No more laziness! Am loving it! yum! The best part, i planned my own time and seems i am like e boss.. haha.. so this makes me more freed up to do my own stuff, at my own pace and time. Isnt that good? Claps! Just got my first pay for my undefined hard work! $91! What a good start! I promised i will work harder and be passionate about my new job. *wInKs*
Today went for Amber evangelistic mtg! Whoa wow! What can i say? Its really not easy.. Total ppl attended was close to seventy. 0_0 with three quater of it, new friends! The mtg went well, guess everyone enjoyed themselves! Praying hard for u amber, all the friends that came will be yr potential members! YeAh! Well i learnt and have experienced alot today! Its eye opening! I am inspired and impressed! I have to jia you le!

In battle again! Fight!

G0inG GrEeN!

2005-08-24T02:56:00.000+08:00

So amazing...

I dunno whats the best way to describe.. it just feels good!
Yeah! Today went for combined service prayer meeting. Pst Zhuang were sharing how each one bring one friend can make a difference then we can multiply our CG.Then i was reminded... that time when Pastor Mike was here. We were practising how to move in the Spirit. I paired up with this sister who dunno i am a cell leader said she saw me multiplying my CG not just into one but many.. just like a family! whoa! and also i will leave a legacy behind! wah! I simply cannot believe my ears. So after PM, i told my beloved members how by bringing a friend each and integrate them can actually multiply our CG very soon! How they can make a difference by integrating just one friend each. Imagine the whole CG does that! Multiplication is on its way! My members too were inspired. Saw faith arising in them. Me too of course! With God, i know its possible de!

For the past few weeks, cloudy days and rainy days ran ahead of me. Now the sun is out.. i can see the sun.. i can see the sun with love! haha! Yup, its high time i stopped hiding under my umbrella and start exercising under the sun! Hmm! God so many times reminded me how to move on. It has constantly striked my mind. The impact was hard. He said to love Him more. I simply have placed too much emphasis around the things around me that i have forgotten all about Jesus. Not that i forgot who Jesus is but have forgotten He is and has the most important place in my heart. I knew all along He was but did not gave special attention to Him. Unknowingly other people and things have creeped into my heart and stolen that place that is onli meant for Him. I was shaken! I was distracted! My! They all looked so appealing and have captivated my heart some way of another. But God reminded me in a picture. I saw Him holding my little hands, on the beach walking just right beside me. So near! I was bagging the weight of this world and my passion for the reasons of my temporary unforgivable turn away. arh.. then i fell.. I lost grip of His hands. ouch its painful you know! I could not enjoy any of those moments w Jesus. Jesus looked at me and smiled.. dun worry! He offered His hands again. This time He said its ok.. He carried and lifted me. Embraced me in His warmth and loving arms.. I melted just like M&M. Yeah, now than i am back, i must rem He always have my first love. This first love will compelled me to go all the way! Just for you! I Love y0u Jesus!

Is He number one in your life today?

Leonardo, Michelangelo, Donatello, Raphael

* tHe mEaNinG oF LifE *

2005-08-18T22:01:00.000+08:00

Everyone needs attention.

Recognition is the food of the soul.

Most are starving.

Everyone needs to love and to be loved.

If we give people attention maybe they'll stop doing those annoying things they do to get attention.

Giving others significance is possibly the greatest gift all of us have.

Many live in high-minded delusion because no one gave them significance.

Meaningfulness is the ache of the soul.

What is the meaning of life?

We give the meaning of life to people, when we recognise their abilities, achievements and impact the world.

Today, have you give to the people around you the attention that they need?
Some might tried very hard to get theirs whereas some do not.
but that does not mean they do not need.
Giving attention can be as simple as spending time with each other.
Or it can be sending sms to each other here and there even though you see each other often.
If not, just showered them with care and concern. Most importantly, do it with love and sincerity.
Still dunno how? Then open and mouth and just tell them.. It can be anything nice.
Just appreciate and tell each other how much you love each other.
Different people have different means of getting attention. What's yours?
Dun just want attention. Give and you will receive.
Remember everyone needs it.

I am trying my best.

>>> What's Next? <<<

2005-08-13T00:31:00.000+08:00

*huff and puff* Looks like i am in some kind of race..
the rabbit and tortoise race...
Rabbit thinks he is going to win aniway, why not rest first? It is still early to think of anything with tortoise miles behind.
But e tortoise think other wise.. He persisted throughout though his finishing line were not within his sight. I am sure he too will get tired of carrying that shell and having to race in a competition where chances of winning were negative. Temptations to rest and give up sure flash across his mind.. did he give in then?
Am i rabbit or tortoise?
Life is still the same. Seems like my heart and mind have got heavier with additional unwanted loads of meditations from different sources. Man, can you imagine that kind of pressure? Well..
just kinda settled and trashed out some stuff that have been roaming through my easily invaded mind. but still the problem persists. hai~ or is it me? Probably i think too much. thats my weakness!! Am i too sensitive or simply i cared too much about how u feel and think that i have thrown myself into some kind of depression. silly me >_< at least now its better after bringing it out.. i will never forget that day.. seems like some kind of confrontation. I got so much to say but i am just so limited in my vocab of vocal expressions. I was tremendously helpless when i saw how those tears rolled down the clueless face of yours. For the first time i cried in front of someone dear to me bcoz of increasing tension that is present between us. Now diminishing le of coz. I reali dun want to go thru whatever that has taken place again. can you talk to me? Its painful and it still hurts. God.. can u tell me why? ...
ok, well can i say God you are so amazing and faithful! Though i kinda of low tank in my faith n my trust in ya, Y0u are still there besides me, wrapping me in yr presence, constantly reminding me of yr words and yr promises. Yes! I know Y0u will provide as if you have said so! Jesus Y0u are the best!
LAst week went for FOP. wah, amazing things can reali happen anytime. The most discouraging sight.. Queues outside the stadium were like never ending. There were trains and trains of ppl. It has been ages since i joined the crowd. wanted to join in the "fun" with the rest. So on sat, we managed to cut queue and joined steph they all in the stomach of the "dragon". It could never have been boring with lian and minghui around. We played "MRT stations" using uno cards. So funny! Without say, i was laughing my heart out.. whoohoo. We made so much noise until we invited stares from the surrounding.. haha! feel like laughing just thinking of it!
The whole mtg kicked start with Hillsong and Delirious leading us into a great time praising and worshipping God with their hottest release! We have experienced the presence of God like never before as the preaching of the Word by Pst Collin convicted us in out hearts about having Apostolic Faith. The last night was the most solid arh! We were all just contended praising God with all that we have though energy level was at its minimum after 3 long fruitful days.. *sings* ohhh... yeah... here we come!

Tortoise won the race!
I will win it too!

Moving North

2005-08-01T16:25:00.000+08:00

It seems like life kinda of have slowed down for me..
or is everything moving on except me?
was reminded of pst kong sermon. Imagine yrself driving in a car.Looking at the passing scenery. I am so captivated by my surrounding that I am now crawling at 20km/hr. Not maximising the full potential of the car. not giving my best in everything i do. saw how other cars zoom before me. it seems like i am going to crash any moment even at this turtle speed. am i starting to slack? yesterday pst mike preached about going around the mountain. yup i think i am like tat. As he was preaching, i can fully identified and hey pst u are talking about me isnt it? haha. Then GOd spoke to me. He gave me a revelation..Deu 2:2-3 says " YOu have skirted this mountain LONG ENOUGH; turn NORTHWARD." It like G0d telling me, ting arh, u have been going around circles n circles for very very long le.. its time to move on. Dunno where to go? G0d says turn NORTH. I dunno why north.. i dun understand. Then it dawns upon me to turn north it means to look UP. Okie i got the message. Look to GOd for directions and move on!
y0u know its like when you are lost in a jungle, the help of the compass following north will always lead you out of that jungle. Thinking abt it, i am lost in my world of jungles and forests. Jungles and jungles of disappointment, helplessness. Embraced by only trees of tiredness, clothe in discouragement, thoughts of giving up again. Just bcoz i am so lost and preoccupied with where to go n what to do, i have missed out the bigger picture of many things. Those unwanted feelings have thrown me against the wall. I cant picked myself up again. badly injured! >_< *0uCh* I felt i lost my faithfulness, love for ppl, my passion, no energy, no fire, no excitment, no idea, not enthusiastic le. I lost it all! So now i am like driving a car aimlessly, desperately looking out for signs to tell me which road n path to drive on. I am lost... i need a compass to get out of my jungle. G0d has placed the map, road directory n comapass in my hands now. its my turn to take action.. whether to step out, change gear, step on the accelerator and go north.. I din not tell anyone about this sickening problem of mine. Friday, i went to ah lian CG to play for her during ministry.. She prayed for me.. hmm, well i must say G0d is good! Lian said, asked me not to be so lost in my own world, its time to look to Jesus! I mean wow, i din tell her, she sensed it, Holy Spirit prompted her and gave me that world! all i can think of now is the song.. "... so i look to you..." whoohoo! 6_^ t0 Holy Spirit n Lian: Thank you! You both are the best! No wonder we are the best of friends! yeah!
Well like i said life is slowing down for me. so nothing interesting and exciting reali pumps me up for the last few weeks. Lian and i were late for the mtg yesterday. We were desperate. We din want to take cab n we took the MRT to TPY. When we reached, i think disussions almost done. hmm. Meeting ended before 9, the fastest mtg ever! Dun feel like lingering around for fellowship, the introvert ting is acting up again. *_* so went off earlier with lian, sis py and bro zhifu. Hmm, when we reached amk, it was still kinda of early. Think lian and i abit crazy. Although we din say, definitely we felt very funny going home so early on sunday nite. not used to it.. We were craving for ice cream but dun have the ones we wanted. so our legs carried us to cheers. And then we shopped there! Laughs! we din shop very long there onli for a few mins. we were like some curious aliens from other planets exploring the stuff in the store. n lian was funny as usual! ding dong! keke! but then its like our secondary sch days, man! enjoyed those few moments. What can be compared to spending time with yr best friend ya?
Ya talking about this.. Its been some time we reali talk to each other, reali spend quality time w each other. Like wat you said, reali not used to it. I missed fellowshipping, laughing, chatting and going home with you. I am looking forward! You told me u have move on. You have taken greater and bigger steps in God and you are expanding your capacity. YOu have move on to a new level and definitely doing more for Jesus! I knew u can do it! Just wanna say i am very proud of u! Hui, Jia you!

there must be more to this
who is to show
what is my life to be
I need to know...

I wAnt~

2005-07-26T02:13:00.000+08:00

Not I need to.. but

I want..

I want to know who am i
I want to know my greater purpose in life
I want to move on
I want to be a better leader
I want to ex-cel in everything i do
I want to see my members on fire more for Jesus
I want to be more diligent
I want to be a guitarist for Him
I want to be a better friend
I want to be bolder
i want to be happier

I want to experience my breakthrough soon
I want to move out of my dead end
I want to know am i on the right track
I want to cRy
I want to express myself better
I want to migrate out of my depression
I want to reformat my mind
I want to erase my past
i want to give up
I want to rest

But...
I want to know You better
I want to love You more
I want directions now

More than all these..
i just want Y0u...

I mAdE iT!!

2005-07-20T02:32:00.000+08:00

2005-07-18T15:04:00.000+08:00

BlUeSsss
Stole the Rooster’s job this morning, woke up early, went to the airport with Garvin and Ruoyang. Hui Shan is leaving for Australia today.. SO fast.. she is going there for 2 whole years to study.. Will miss her I think. Oh man, the departing scene is just so so sad.. Shan’s parents and her cousins and relatives couldn’t help but have tears rolling down their cheeks, while the rest of us, looked at them helplessly. I dun know abt the rest, but I am holding back my tears. Deep down in my fragile heart, I was crying buckets. Maybe they too got tears welding up in their eyes.. None of us exchange our feelings nor look at each other directly. Guess we all have mixed feelings abt shan’s departure. That kind of feeling I dun wanna experience it again. To have someone close to you leaving yr side, you will feel.. maybe handicapped.. like some part of you went missing. It’s only times like this that you will know how impt how the ppl ard are. So do not even attempt to take your friends for granted.
I went thru something similar before. One of my very close friend met with an accident. Thank God nothing serious happened but my heart sank when I heard the news. Onli then I know how precious and deep our friendship was.
Although shan and I not very close, still you will feel something. We spend reasonable time, praying, talking and laughing together so I guess its rational that cant bear to see her leave. It seems like got lots to tell her but when was dumbfolded when we saw her. It seems like all the words stopped flowing out from our mouths. Think its very brave of her to leave everything behind here and go to a foreign city to carry on with life! Hui shan, Jia you!
Saturday went to sis PY cg to help her play during ministry time.. haha! Super surprised when she approached me. Was super kan cheong! Not very familiar with the acoustic guitar and the song but God is good! Anointing and His presence hit the whole mtg. Whoosh~ solid! I am glad I went. Was ministered to, learnt a lot and got breakthrough myself! Can never know how God moves.
Went to celebrate Minghui’s birthday with em on sat at Raffles City Coffee Club. Had a hearty, comfortable time chatting with each other. Had a fruitful day on sat!

Y0u mAdE mE cRy aGaIn~

the first time

2005-07-15T10:26:00.000+08:00

whoo hoo! now SOT break! making use of every min.. time is prescious! yeah yesterday was my first time.. it was so cool! i never thought i could do it. its so amazing! Indeed all things are possible with Christ! I did it not knowing how! God is good! the feeling is beyond words. Looking forward for more! Tonight there is going to be another first time.. same thing, i dunno how.. but i trust Jesus to going to move for me again ! Believing God for more breakthru! its on thw way. yup, tell u guys more next time.. need to go.. bye!

U r y~

You Are . . .

2005-07-11T02:21:00.000+08:00

You are…
Some day some how, you stepped into my life. Unknowingly steal a very important place in my heart. You made me cried, laugh, getting all the possible emotions erupting out from me. With your simple little actions and words, you have inspired and changed my life course. The challenges you thrown right into my face injected determination and even more fighting spirit to live my life more meaningful for Jesus! Yes, you did that!
Although I knew you for some calendar years but I think u know me better than I know you. Frequently, I bared my heart to you having no reservation but you are contained within yourself. I know you only to the extend I see you. Surface isn’t it?
Sometimes I find you abit eccentric, haha no offence but I do feel that a little. I am at a loss when I faced you, not knowing what are you thinking in that little deep witty brain of yours. It seems too hard for me to comprehend what provoked that another side of you. But it reali sets me thinking hard on the edge of my chair. Those few unwanted and unnecessary feelings send shiver down my spine, as all I get was just a pair cold, empty eyes. I cant help but it sets me pondering for moments that are you the one that I reali know? Was that something I did wrong that deserves those undesirable expressions from you? *sHruGs* All I knew and I ever want to commit to my memory are those wonderful times that we spent laughing at each other, those silly thing around us and simply just enjoying each other presence. Many times, I tried to be the best I can be… just a very good friend to you, maybe I am not there yet, to you it might be nothing, it seems nothing. It doesn’t matter much if it didn’t arouse your attention, I am just contented with just exerting every single inch of my energy to do what I can. You can have expectations. I am exceedingly sorry for not being capable of meeting those unmentioned expectations of yours. You might feel and I give you permission to be irritated with me, thinking I am just some silly clown, ignorant, but this is me.. I cannot be your perfect friend. All I want to be is.. just be your best friend I ever know how.

UneXpeCted JuNe~

2005-07-04T01:21:00.000+08:00

tick-tock! tick-tock! time.. be careful, dun blink yr eyes, before you know it, it has quietly creeped pass you.. its gone!
ha, i cant imagine.. last week of school holidays for me. so leopard fast! This week having exams for the first time in bible school. Dunno wat kind of questions to expect. Anticipation plus anxiety, a funny mixture isnt it? Sitting down revising in my mind how i have wasted my whole June holidays, regrets just embraced me. Well i cant possibly turned back the clock or simply pressed snooze so that wake up call can be later, what has happened has already become a reality.. so real, so true, so unbelievable! so its time to wake up! *smack*
Except for Amazing Emerge, i think June doesnt really excites me. Laziness are just like ants, kept on crawling to me. Aimless, purposeless were my best friends then. They never failed to accompany me. Spending a few hours at work seems eternity and fellowshipping with my bed seems more fruitful afterall. Nothing to worry about. *tsk*
*pIak*so.. then my wake up call came last week, decided to die to those creepy crawlers in my life and saying bye to my "best friends". Flight ST took off once again departing from the runway of encouragements, deserting behind doubts, selfishness, stinky attitiude, now soaring in the sky, happily in the arms of Jesus! Thats the best place to be! hoots!
My heart longing to go for holidays can never be satisfied at the moment.. ah lian and amber went KL! think they had so much so much fun. And they were shopping like they haven done any for decades. My, look at the things they bought, cool and the most impt thing. its all discounted! wah! eyes turning green.. someone turn on the white light! Yup, but nvm, i had my fair share of fun too! whoohoo! Went to east coast with Emily on tues. We cycled till we cant sit still on our bikes *0uCh* >_< and went sat by the beach. Never expect ourselves to be roasted under that scorching sun! wanted a tann badly but got burnt instead..sssiiiii. Who cares abt those temporary burnt when we enjoyed ourselves to the max! yeah! =)
HA! I really cannot comprehend how much i went thru this whole June! Its like so out of this world! Have been experiencing breakthru in my cg! God is good! This week got 8 friends joined us for service! heeha! whoa! N the best part of June was, finally i know i am there, after so much struggling and fighting. I made it! I cannot believe my ears and eyes! It came! I onli going to make it better! Jesus help me!
School gonna start! cant wait! Assignment accomplished! lalala!
Gonna make everyday count!

li0n~all f0r y0u

fUn! fUn! fUn!

2005-06-26T00:28:00.000+08:00

whoohoo! today was a happening and funday rather than a saturday!
went to work and got nothing much to do.. hmm.. good news? haha maybe..
yup, the best part of the day.. was looking forward to go sis em cg!
finally the time came and went. CG was great! yeah like the way sis em preached. she very the solid. i am going to learn from her more ya! I want to be solid too. yeah enjoy her cg meeting. The best part was the fellowship. Man, i enjoyed it thoroughly! had sooooo much fun until i laugh and laugh.. nearly rolled on the floor. =) It has been some time since i was laughing my heart out and i want my cg to experience that kind of felllowship too.. where everyone comes together, united, just enjoying every single min of it. and yes, we went to play basketball after that. my, can i say the girls are good and rough! whaha.. shan't tell u who. but they were a bunch of funny ppl to mix and play around with. had a good time playing with them. yup!
Felt a sense of accomplishment this week, finished one of my SOT assignment, worksheet 1. i am motivated to finish the rest! thanks to my motivator!B0o! =) yeah! got more to come! learn already alot just by that one worksheet. Now i know Isaac was a good farmer. He raised crops that produces hundredfolds... wha! ya, so i also want to live a life that yield hundredfolds of results. It starts n0w!

laUGhInG li0n~